Things have been going smoothly recently. I'm still in the progress of finishing my thesis proposal but I decided to take a break and planned to resume working on Monday.
I just finished playing Shinobido Imashime and it was helluva game. It reminds me of the Tenchu series I used to play when I was years younger. Now, I'm still trying to figure out the puzzle in Shadowhearts. This time, I won't use the walkthrough and try to solve it for myself even if it'll take me hours. Who says video games only make you dumber? Lol
I'm in the mood to write this because the Pistons take game 2 in Boston, which handed them their first loss at home this postseason (and oh, their first loss at home in the season also). That was helluva game, all of them played good but it worries me a little to see Ray Allen out of his shooting slump, Pierce shooting 3's and Garnett hitting those mid range jumpers and fadeaways. Could somebody guard KG? Dang
Good thing about the game is... Chauncey's back. It was a good game for him and I was glad (WE, Piston fans were glad to see this). Every second was breathtaking and I'm currently bragging this to some of my friends right now especially those Celtic fans.
I was laughing while reading one of my friend's blogs concerning the quotes of some Celtic fans he posted there. They were arguing and blaming each other for the loss - finding alibis too. You should see it (click The Command Post on my "Other blogs to see" section to find out).
Updates soon....
Friday, May 23, 2008
Sunday, May 18, 2008
Recent Loss of Common Sense
I don't know why but recently, I've lost my common sense since this summer.
Things like:
-where's my ballpen? (turns out, it's on my ear all along)
-why is there no dial tone when I try to connect to the internet? (turns out, I didn't connect the wire to the pc.) lol
Maybe it's because I've rested too much on my vacation that I'm not more cautious enough. One time, I asked father for assistance and when he found out what the problem is, he called me dumb to not have discovered it. I admit, I can lose my common sense at times (oh come on, who doesn't?) but it's natural right? My valedictorian friend even loses his common sense, t'was hilarious though.
With this experienced, I've learned three things. First thing's first - look before you leap and second - never seek help immediately and third - as much as possible; never seek help from your fathers. They're the most insensitive kinds of people if you ask me. Do they even know what euphemism is?
Maybe I'll be more cautious next time and I hope I could regain my common sense back.
Things like:
-where's my ballpen? (turns out, it's on my ear all along)
-why is there no dial tone when I try to connect to the internet? (turns out, I didn't connect the wire to the pc.) lol
Maybe it's because I've rested too much on my vacation that I'm not more cautious enough. One time, I asked father for assistance and when he found out what the problem is, he called me dumb to not have discovered it. I admit, I can lose my common sense at times (oh come on, who doesn't?) but it's natural right? My valedictorian friend even loses his common sense, t'was hilarious though.
With this experienced, I've learned three things. First thing's first - look before you leap and second - never seek help immediately and third - as much as possible; never seek help from your fathers. They're the most insensitive kinds of people if you ask me. Do they even know what euphemism is?
Maybe I'll be more cautious next time and I hope I could regain my common sense back.
Rifts with Pop
Anyone who ever has problems with their fathers?
I have.
I don't know why I can't seem to get along with that person. Seems like everytime we get into a conversation, it always ends up with a mess.
Like the time I was seeking help with the math problem I was having a hard time so solve. Dang; he's so impatient that he'd call me dumb by not solving it. No wonder, his students are having a hard time. I could heavily relate.
Also the time, I was seeking help from my thesis proposal; I asked him if this research was okay and he replied with a provocative mood (can this be found in Bohol? try to find it; you can't find it in this place). I was so steamed up that I talked back and he's like cursing me. Dang! It's really hard to get along with the guy. I wonder why he has so many friends from the outside. Right now, I'm seeking help with my mother about my thesis proposal project in school. Father's too "less comfortable to be with".
Well, come to think of it; he spends more time with his friends than in the house. Oh well, can't blame him and besides; it's more of mutualism if you ask me. He's happy with his friends, and I'm happy by not having him in the house. (I'm speaking this honestly, if you'd say to talk to him then you have no idea what I'm going through)
I'd addressed this to the people who are hurt by my "hurtful words":
If you say you'd hate me because I'm too honest with you all then wait till you meet my pops. He's so honest that he doesn't use euphemism at all. If he thinks you're stupid then he'd say it in front of your face: "You're stupid". Well, at least I know when to keep my mouth shut and I use euphemism.
That's the truth and nobody could suppress it.
Bottom line is, he's still my pop but he better learn how to be "less honest" if he don't want all his sons against him (no wonder my brothers are having a hard time with him, now I can totally relate).
Advance happy father's day anyway.
I have.
I don't know why I can't seem to get along with that person. Seems like everytime we get into a conversation, it always ends up with a mess.
Like the time I was seeking help with the math problem I was having a hard time so solve. Dang; he's so impatient that he'd call me dumb by not solving it. No wonder, his students are having a hard time. I could heavily relate.
Also the time, I was seeking help from my thesis proposal; I asked him if this research was okay and he replied with a provocative mood (can this be found in Bohol? try to find it; you can't find it in this place). I was so steamed up that I talked back and he's like cursing me. Dang! It's really hard to get along with the guy. I wonder why he has so many friends from the outside. Right now, I'm seeking help with my mother about my thesis proposal project in school. Father's too "less comfortable to be with".
Well, come to think of it; he spends more time with his friends than in the house. Oh well, can't blame him and besides; it's more of mutualism if you ask me. He's happy with his friends, and I'm happy by not having him in the house. (I'm speaking this honestly, if you'd say to talk to him then you have no idea what I'm going through)
I'd addressed this to the people who are hurt by my "hurtful words":
If you say you'd hate me because I'm too honest with you all then wait till you meet my pops. He's so honest that he doesn't use euphemism at all. If he thinks you're stupid then he'd say it in front of your face: "You're stupid". Well, at least I know when to keep my mouth shut and I use euphemism.
That's the truth and nobody could suppress it.
Bottom line is, he's still my pop but he better learn how to be "less honest" if he don't want all his sons against him (no wonder my brothers are having a hard time with him, now I can totally relate).
Advance happy father's day anyway.
Anyone who ever has problems with their fathers?
I have.
I don't know why I can't seem to get along with that person. Seems like everytime we get into a conversation, it always ends up with a mess.
Like the time I was seeking help with the math problem I was having a hard time so solve. Dang; he's so impatient that he'd call me dumb by not solving it. No wonder, his students are having a hard time. I could heavily relate.
Also the time, I was seeking help from my thesis proposal; I asked him if this research was okay and he replied with a provocative mood (can this be found in Bohol? try to find it; you can't find it in this place). I was so steamed up that I talked back and he's like cursing me. Dang! It's really hard to get along with the guy. I wonder why he has so many friends from the outside. Right now, I'm seeking help with my mother about my thesis proposal project in school. Father's too "less comfortable to be with".
Well, come to think of it; he spends more time with his friends than in the house. Oh well, can't blame him and besides; it's more of mutualism if you ask me. He's happy with his friends, and I'm happy by not having him in the house. (I'm speaking this honestly, if you'd say to talk to him then you have no idea what I'm going through)
I'd addressed this to the people who are hurt by my "hurtful words":
If you say you'd hate me because I'm too honest with you all then wait till you meet my pops. He's so honest that he doesn't use euphemism at all. If he thinks you're stupid then he'd say it in front of your face: "You're stupid". Well, at least I know when to keep my mouth shut and I use euphemism.
That's the truth and nobody could suppress it.
Bottom line is, he's still my pop but he better learn how to be "less honest" if he don't want all his sons against him (no wonder my brothers are having a hard time with him, now I can totally relate).
Advance happy father's day anyway.
I have.
I don't know why I can't seem to get along with that person. Seems like everytime we get into a conversation, it always ends up with a mess.
Like the time I was seeking help with the math problem I was having a hard time so solve. Dang; he's so impatient that he'd call me dumb by not solving it. No wonder, his students are having a hard time. I could heavily relate.
Also the time, I was seeking help from my thesis proposal; I asked him if this research was okay and he replied with a provocative mood (can this be found in Bohol? try to find it; you can't find it in this place). I was so steamed up that I talked back and he's like cursing me. Dang! It's really hard to get along with the guy. I wonder why he has so many friends from the outside. Right now, I'm seeking help with my mother about my thesis proposal project in school. Father's too "less comfortable to be with".
Well, come to think of it; he spends more time with his friends than in the house. Oh well, can't blame him and besides; it's more of mutualism if you ask me. He's happy with his friends, and I'm happy by not having him in the house. (I'm speaking this honestly, if you'd say to talk to him then you have no idea what I'm going through)
I'd addressed this to the people who are hurt by my "hurtful words":
If you say you'd hate me because I'm too honest with you all then wait till you meet my pops. He's so honest that he doesn't use euphemism at all. If he thinks you're stupid then he'd say it in front of your face: "You're stupid". Well, at least I know when to keep my mouth shut and I use euphemism.
That's the truth and nobody could suppress it.
Bottom line is, he's still my pop but he better learn how to be "less honest" if he don't want all his sons against him (no wonder my brothers are having a hard time with him, now I can totally relate).
Advance happy father's day anyway.
Thursday, May 1, 2008
Conversation with Mr. Suave
I've chatted with a fellow fan and also a friend..
He's asked me to post this conversation in my blog.
So I did
:)
I've cut the rest of the conversation that doesn't involve this topic
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MR_Suave2008: i have 3 comments a week ago from that spur cell conversation right
LJ: I'll comment on yours
LJ: yes.. that 3 comments
MR_Suave2008: lol
MR_Suave2008: you saw it
MR_Suave2008: lol
MR_Suave2008: Gay Terapist
MR_Suave2008: lol
MR_Suave2008: i said that
MR_Suave2008:
LJ: yep
LJ:
MR_Suave2008: i talked dirty here
MR_Suave2008: lol
MR_Suave2008: Spur Cell
MR_Suave2008: lol
MR_Suave2008: He need to drink a spur cell in able to see his team win
MR_Suave2008: lol
LJ: mwahaha, that fool's shut up
LJ: never bothered me again
LJ: at least, for now
MR_Suave2008: The Cavaliers need to be honest for their Cavalier Queen James
MR_Suave2008: and spare their lives for her
MR_Suave2008: lol
MR_Suave2008: lets make lebron as a pussy lady
MR_Suave2008: lol
MR_Suave2008: put our conversation on your blog
MR_Suave2008: lol
MR_Suave2008: last year
MR_Suave2008: there was a lady named
MR_Suave2008: Ms Lebron James
MR_Suave2008: a Queen out of Cleveland
MR_Suave2008: along with her BITCH team
MR_Suave2008: her team entered in the room where baby's were generated
MR_Suave2008: it is
MR_Suave2008: in AT&T
MR_Suave2008: center
MR_Suave2008: in San Antonio
LJ: haha, you're really enraged with the Cavs
MR_Suave2008: the Home of the SPur Cells
LJ: and Spurs
MR_Suave2008: lol
MR_Suave2008: Now the finals starts
MR_Suave2008: war games in bed
MR_Suave2008: Lebron Starts Licking the Spur Cells
MR_Suave2008: and Enjoying riding
MR_Suave2008: after riding
MR_Suave2008: doing a doggy
MR_Suave2008: then after wards
MR_Suave2008: lick another spur cell
MR_Suave2008: she said
MR_Suave2008: ooooooooooooooooooooooohhhhhhh
MR_Suave2008: more manu more!!!
MR_Suave2008: lol
MR_Suave2008:
MR_Suave2008: and bowen squats
MR_Suave2008: and lebron enjoys the showdown and told her lads
MR_Suave2008: come on lads
MR_Suave2008: lets lick a spur cell
MR_Suave2008: they enjoyed
LJ: post it in a spurs forum
LJ: lol
MR_Suave2008: and the spur cells poisoned lebron's team and her kingdom
MR_Suave2008: the bitch cavalier kingdom had ended
MR_Suave2008: and the spur cells poisoned them
MR_Suave2008: lol
MR_Suave2008: did i make lebron a bitchy cocky lady
MR_Suave2008: lol
MR_Suave2008:
LJ:
LJ: dang, you really got pissed with those teams?
MR_Suave2008: yeah yeah yeah
MR_Suave2008: lol
MR_Suave2008: lebron is the bitch of the NBA
MR_Suave2008: and the spurs are the poisonous team
MR_Suave2008: in terms of their spur cell
MR_Suave2008: makamandag
MR_Suave2008: lol
MR_Suave2008: bruce bowen is their best production of poisonous spur cell
MR_Suave2008: lol
MR_Suave2008: post it to your blog
MR_Suave2008: name me as the one who hated san antonio and cleveland so much
MR_Suave2008: lol
MR_Suave2008: ei upnext this
MR_Suave2008: post all things i said
MR_Suave2008: against san antonio and cleveland
MR_Suave2008: lol
MR_Suave2008: the story
LJ: hehe, I'll post yours after I've finished writing my recent entry
rjd22_1789: lol
LJ:
MR_Suave2008: that will be fun
MR_Suave2008: lol
He's asked me to post this conversation in my blog.
So I did
:)
I've cut the rest of the conversation that doesn't involve this topic
-------------------------------------
MR_Suave2008: i have 3 comments a week ago from that spur cell conversation right
LJ: I'll comment on yours
LJ: yes.. that 3 comments
MR_Suave2008: lol
MR_Suave2008: you saw it
MR_Suave2008: lol
MR_Suave2008: Gay Terapist
MR_Suave2008: lol
MR_Suave2008: i said that
MR_Suave2008:
LJ: yep
LJ:
MR_Suave2008: i talked dirty here
MR_Suave2008: lol
MR_Suave2008: Spur Cell
MR_Suave2008: lol
MR_Suave2008: He need to drink a spur cell in able to see his team win
MR_Suave2008: lol
LJ: mwahaha, that fool's shut up
LJ: never bothered me again
LJ: at least, for now
MR_Suave2008: The Cavaliers need to be honest for their Cavalier Queen James
MR_Suave2008: and spare their lives for her
MR_Suave2008: lol
MR_Suave2008: lets make lebron as a pussy lady
MR_Suave2008: lol
MR_Suave2008: put our conversation on your blog
MR_Suave2008: lol
MR_Suave2008: last year
MR_Suave2008: there was a lady named
MR_Suave2008: Ms Lebron James
MR_Suave2008: a Queen out of Cleveland
MR_Suave2008: along with her BITCH team
MR_Suave2008: her team entered in the room where baby's were generated
MR_Suave2008: it is
MR_Suave2008: in AT&T
MR_Suave2008: center
MR_Suave2008: in San Antonio
LJ: haha, you're really enraged with the Cavs
MR_Suave2008: the Home of the SPur Cells
LJ: and Spurs
MR_Suave2008: lol
MR_Suave2008: Now the finals starts
MR_Suave2008: war games in bed
MR_Suave2008: Lebron Starts Licking the Spur Cells
MR_Suave2008: and Enjoying riding
MR_Suave2008: after riding
MR_Suave2008: doing a doggy
MR_Suave2008: then after wards
MR_Suave2008: lick another spur cell
MR_Suave2008: she said
MR_Suave2008: ooooooooooooooooooooooohhhhhhh
MR_Suave2008: more manu more!!!
MR_Suave2008: lol
MR_Suave2008:
MR_Suave2008: and bowen squats
MR_Suave2008: and lebron enjoys the showdown and told her lads
MR_Suave2008: come on lads
MR_Suave2008: lets lick a spur cell
MR_Suave2008: they enjoyed
LJ: post it in a spurs forum
LJ: lol
MR_Suave2008: and the spur cells poisoned lebron's team and her kingdom
MR_Suave2008: the bitch cavalier kingdom had ended
MR_Suave2008: and the spur cells poisoned them
MR_Suave2008: lol
MR_Suave2008: did i make lebron a bitchy cocky lady
MR_Suave2008: lol
MR_Suave2008:
LJ:
LJ: dang, you really got pissed with those teams?
MR_Suave2008: yeah yeah yeah
MR_Suave2008: lol
MR_Suave2008: lebron is the bitch of the NBA
MR_Suave2008: and the spurs are the poisonous team
MR_Suave2008: in terms of their spur cell
MR_Suave2008: makamandag
MR_Suave2008: lol
MR_Suave2008: bruce bowen is their best production of poisonous spur cell
MR_Suave2008: lol
MR_Suave2008: post it to your blog
MR_Suave2008: name me as the one who hated san antonio and cleveland so much
MR_Suave2008: lol
MR_Suave2008: ei upnext this
MR_Suave2008: post all things i said
MR_Suave2008: against san antonio and cleveland
MR_Suave2008: lol
MR_Suave2008: the story
LJ: hehe, I'll post yours after I've finished writing my recent entry
rjd22_1789: lol
LJ:
MR_Suave2008: that will be fun
MR_Suave2008: lol
Concealed Feelings
Many people would dare ask me this question : "how's your lovelife?"
......................my answers:
- my lovelife's dead
- numb
- I'm single
That question prompted me to write this entry.
There's always this teenage issue on having these kinds of feelings towards the opposite sex.
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My First Crush
("It was natural" Regardless)
---------------------------------------------
The first time I've experienced this was way back in Grade 1. It was only an obssession; just looking at her, and of course I wasn't being serious with it because I regard that feeling back then as only natural and temporary. She was nice, attractive, intelligent, and a shy one I may say but she has a friendly attitude and somewhat an approachable being despite her shyness. We became friends, I was crushing her but never made plans to push the relationship better because as I've said; I was already contented being friends and I was really ignorant that time that I thought relationships really are easy. Well, she transferred to some other school around a year later so... poof.... just gone like a bubble. Our ties stopped after that. I never saw her again.
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Second Crush
(the longest time I've had a crush on, and the most memorable as of yet)
-------------------------------------
On my grade 3 (or is it grade 4)... I had a crush on this girl. Well, still she was smart, attractive, and also has that "friendly" attitude. We started being close friends since then, but my classmates started teasing me to an extent that we (me and my crush back then) only communicate through letters. Haha, that was fun, and romantic; right now I find myself funny looking back at my elementary years. We did maintained our friendship; we never got into quarrels. She was the only one that I think is the friendliest so far. I did managed to admit my feelings to her but she never felt "uneasy" about it. She was still friendly and cheerful, like nothing's ever happened; she was able to maintain a friendly attitude towards me and I've greatly appreciated that. Just months ago, I went to my former school to get information about my height and weight (it's a PE thing) in their clinic when I happen to meet her. I said hi and she said so likewise. It's a nice feeling after all. Although, I found out that she's currently in a relationship; it's still fine with me. Oh well, thanks for the time you've spent with me and we've had a good run. Best wishes to ya. (this message is to her, if you manage to read this... :) )
The reason why I've lost touch with her was because I transferred to another school. Since then, I've lost touch to most of my friends there, especially to her; but I've regained communications to some of my friends through friendster and yahoo! messenger. It's nice to have talked to them again. Good times, good times.
The times spent with her are the times I'd never forget... ever. You've got my word on it.
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Third Crush
(the first time I've felt depressed about having a crush on)
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The time I transferred to my new school. I really had bad times initially primarily because I haven't adjusted to the new environment I was in currently. I was in a bad mood back then because I failed in a test which I don't grow accustomed of, when one sophomore (of course, I was a freshman back then) approached and introduced herself to me. I was startled that time because dang, this girl just came to me all of a sudden and out of nowhere just to introduce herself to the "new face". I did introduced my name and I found out that she was always smiling that time.
After that, I was asking some of my classmates for her cellphone number because I was willing to really be friends with her. We've been texting back and forth to an extent that I've spent so much on the cellphone load. (I never realized there was unlimited texting.. lol).
With the cheery face and friendly personality; we became friends... almost, close friends even.
The days passed, we are having a good relationship; a friendly relationship. I admit, her smiles would cheer me up everyday we've met each other. I thought at that time, this might turn out good. I've confessed my feelings to her but only through text, I've no guts telling her in person. I was feeling a little bit "uncomfortable" back then. We continue talking only through private messaging in friendster and sometimes, texting.
I've never imagined it'd turn out the other way around.
Things just changed, mainly because the others started teasing me and her; that might've prompted her to act different towards me. I even hear rumours of her talking behind my back. Now I feel uneasy even when I think or hear her name. It's a livin' nightmare I tell ya. I've spent 3 school years feeling uneasy. I don't know why who's really changed.. her or me but one thing's for sure... it never stayed the same again.
We've made peace and reconciled each other before she graduated. Best wishes. Thanks for the time spent of course, I meant the friendship.
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Intermission
(A Nice Feeling)
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I found out that one of my friends has a crush on me (I found it out on her friendster account.. on the comments page). Well, it was nice knowing that someone finally admires you but the reason I couldn't feel the same because.. you might not believe this, but "we never actually met in person". We just happen to know each other in MIRC - "a chatroom". Well, I don't know why she feels that way to me even though we haven't actually met but I'm still glad that someone would care for me that much. That explains the "friendship gifts" she'd sent me. In return, I send her some "burned cds" of her favorite artists and bands. It was a worthwhile gift. (If you're reading this, you better take care of those cds. Next time, it won't be free... lol)
I've heard that you have a new relationship... congratulations and I wish you all the best in life. Rock and roll and I hope the friendship won't change.
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Fourth Crush (Current)
(I won't risk it, friendship's already been ok)
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I'm currently crushing on this girl. One thing about her is that "she's always cheerful" everytime I see her. Like she's most of the time "laughing" which makes me cheerful and all that. We're not that close but we're still having a friendly relationship. There are many gaps in between but I'm already glad and contented that I get to see her at times and see that "smile". I won't risk the chance; that'd be terrible it THE PAST would happen again.
Thing is: I'm still crushing on her... and currently am. :)
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CONCLUSION
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Having these kinds of feelings ain't bad. There's nothing wrong with it, of course unless, you're taking it too much. You know what they say "The Unexpected always impact us the most" and I still agree with it up to this day.
To all the people I've addressed above (if you happen to read this).. thanks for the inspiration, for the memories, and for the time I've spent with you. It was a worthwhile run, and I'll never forget you. Good luck and may God be with ya all.
Feels good to reminisce all this time. Makes me feel strange about it but it was a worthwhile write.
NO REGRETS AT ALL
NOTE:
I'm sorry if I can't put proper english on this entry. I just feel "strange" when writing this one that I couldn't even write english that well. With the addition that my head's aching all this time.
......................my answers:
- my lovelife's dead
- numb
- I'm single
That question prompted me to write this entry.
There's always this teenage issue on having these kinds of feelings towards the opposite sex.
---------------------------------------------
My First Crush
("It was natural" Regardless)
---------------------------------------------
The first time I've experienced this was way back in Grade 1. It was only an obssession; just looking at her, and of course I wasn't being serious with it because I regard that feeling back then as only natural and temporary. She was nice, attractive, intelligent, and a shy one I may say but she has a friendly attitude and somewhat an approachable being despite her shyness. We became friends, I was crushing her but never made plans to push the relationship better because as I've said; I was already contented being friends and I was really ignorant that time that I thought relationships really are easy. Well, she transferred to some other school around a year later so... poof.... just gone like a bubble. Our ties stopped after that. I never saw her again.
-------------------------------------
Second Crush
(the longest time I've had a crush on, and the most memorable as of yet)
-------------------------------------
On my grade 3 (or is it grade 4)... I had a crush on this girl. Well, still she was smart, attractive, and also has that "friendly" attitude. We started being close friends since then, but my classmates started teasing me to an extent that we (me and my crush back then) only communicate through letters. Haha, that was fun, and romantic; right now I find myself funny looking back at my elementary years. We did maintained our friendship; we never got into quarrels. She was the only one that I think is the friendliest so far. I did managed to admit my feelings to her but she never felt "uneasy" about it. She was still friendly and cheerful, like nothing's ever happened; she was able to maintain a friendly attitude towards me and I've greatly appreciated that. Just months ago, I went to my former school to get information about my height and weight (it's a PE thing) in their clinic when I happen to meet her. I said hi and she said so likewise. It's a nice feeling after all. Although, I found out that she's currently in a relationship; it's still fine with me. Oh well, thanks for the time you've spent with me and we've had a good run. Best wishes to ya. (this message is to her, if you manage to read this... :) )
The reason why I've lost touch with her was because I transferred to another school. Since then, I've lost touch to most of my friends there, especially to her; but I've regained communications to some of my friends through friendster and yahoo! messenger. It's nice to have talked to them again. Good times, good times.
The times spent with her are the times I'd never forget... ever. You've got my word on it.
---------------------------------------
Third Crush
(the first time I've felt depressed about having a crush on)
---------------------------------------
The time I transferred to my new school. I really had bad times initially primarily because I haven't adjusted to the new environment I was in currently. I was in a bad mood back then because I failed in a test which I don't grow accustomed of, when one sophomore (of course, I was a freshman back then) approached and introduced herself to me. I was startled that time because dang, this girl just came to me all of a sudden and out of nowhere just to introduce herself to the "new face". I did introduced my name and I found out that she was always smiling that time.
After that, I was asking some of my classmates for her cellphone number because I was willing to really be friends with her. We've been texting back and forth to an extent that I've spent so much on the cellphone load. (I never realized there was unlimited texting.. lol).
With the cheery face and friendly personality; we became friends... almost, close friends even.
The days passed, we are having a good relationship; a friendly relationship. I admit, her smiles would cheer me up everyday we've met each other. I thought at that time, this might turn out good. I've confessed my feelings to her but only through text, I've no guts telling her in person. I was feeling a little bit "uncomfortable" back then. We continue talking only through private messaging in friendster and sometimes, texting.
I've never imagined it'd turn out the other way around.
Things just changed, mainly because the others started teasing me and her; that might've prompted her to act different towards me. I even hear rumours of her talking behind my back. Now I feel uneasy even when I think or hear her name. It's a livin' nightmare I tell ya. I've spent 3 school years feeling uneasy. I don't know why who's really changed.. her or me but one thing's for sure... it never stayed the same again.
We've made peace and reconciled each other before she graduated. Best wishes. Thanks for the time spent of course, I meant the friendship.
----------------------------------------
Intermission
(A Nice Feeling)
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I found out that one of my friends has a crush on me (I found it out on her friendster account.. on the comments page). Well, it was nice knowing that someone finally admires you but the reason I couldn't feel the same because.. you might not believe this, but "we never actually met in person". We just happen to know each other in MIRC - "a chatroom". Well, I don't know why she feels that way to me even though we haven't actually met but I'm still glad that someone would care for me that much. That explains the "friendship gifts" she'd sent me. In return, I send her some "burned cds" of her favorite artists and bands. It was a worthwhile gift. (If you're reading this, you better take care of those cds. Next time, it won't be free... lol)
I've heard that you have a new relationship... congratulations and I wish you all the best in life. Rock and roll and I hope the friendship won't change.
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Fourth Crush (Current)
(I won't risk it, friendship's already been ok)
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I'm currently crushing on this girl. One thing about her is that "she's always cheerful" everytime I see her. Like she's most of the time "laughing" which makes me cheerful and all that. We're not that close but we're still having a friendly relationship. There are many gaps in between but I'm already glad and contented that I get to see her at times and see that "smile". I won't risk the chance; that'd be terrible it THE PAST would happen again.
Thing is: I'm still crushing on her... and currently am. :)
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CONCLUSION
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Having these kinds of feelings ain't bad. There's nothing wrong with it, of course unless, you're taking it too much. You know what they say "The Unexpected always impact us the most" and I still agree with it up to this day.
To all the people I've addressed above (if you happen to read this).. thanks for the inspiration, for the memories, and for the time I've spent with you. It was a worthwhile run, and I'll never forget you. Good luck and may God be with ya all.
Feels good to reminisce all this time. Makes me feel strange about it but it was a worthwhile write.
NO REGRETS AT ALL
NOTE:
I'm sorry if I can't put proper english on this entry. I just feel "strange" when writing this one that I couldn't even write english that well. With the addition that my head's aching all this time.
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