Temporary Breather

Thank goodness, the scheduled practices for this week are over.

Brother just came back from Manila around yesterday so I don't think I can use the internet that often, just so you know.

All we ever do there to enjoy ourselves were playing hoops with some friends and some schoolmates. One thing I noticed is that they always leave me wide open so I took advantage of the big space and hit several jumpers (including 2 clutch shots that won our game); no bullsh*t. There's one of my batchmate who isn't really a basketball enthusiasts but dang!; he hit 4 straight jumpshots against our opponents so yeah, you shouldn't judge a person by it's appearance and I hope this keeps going because with me being "underestimated" I could really get wide open looks. Although I could see our opponents not playing their best; I mean come on, they're always doing silly alley-oops, fancy layups and putbacks but come one, they could've been played their A game against us.

The best moment I've ever done in basketball is me hitting 5 straight jump shots including 1 three pointer; well, to some who are really good at basketball, it's nothing to brag but to me... for a person who only plays basketball on video games, it's not bad isn't it? The only reason I think I hit many jumpers because of the same thing - WIDE OPEN LOOKS!

All I could think of now are my thesis proposal and the NBA Playoffs but since I don't want to talk about my thesis proposal (strictly confidential); then I'd just post here my insights about the playoffs.

The NBA regular season is over; now it's PLAYOFF time!

It's really hard to predict who will emerge champs this season (the Celtics best season record ain't a guarantee - remember the Mavs?), but I'll still root for my favorite teams to take the gold all the way namely:

New Orleans Hornets
- At last, a healthy lineup of Chris Paul, Peja Stojakovic, and Tyson Chandler; the only reason they didn't make it to the playoffs 2 seasons straight was because of an unhealthy roster. Now, they got a chance to prove they got the shot at the title though their disadvantage would be the lack of playoff experience.

Washington Wizards
- Agent Zero aka Gilbert Arenas is back and so is Caron Butler. I really hope their offensive power could knock out "King James and his kingdom". It's so nice to shut the Cavs' fans yaps about their ranting and worshipping of "Lebron". I'm not saying Lebron's a bad player or anything, I just hate one man teams (even if they got Ben Wallace and Sczerbiak; it's still Lebron's team). Long story short, I hope they could eliminate the Cavs - I believe Agent Zero could do that and he'll have his chance to redeem himself concerning 2 years ago when he missed the two clutch free throws that could've kept the Wizards alive (or probably win the series).

and lastly

Detroit Pistons

-If Arenas and the Wizards get eliminated, I hope Detroit could finish the job. The full review of this team is in my previous post (Detroit Pistons Starters and Detroit Pistons Bench). DEEEE-TROIT BASKETBALL!!!

-----Updates soon------

Arduous Summer

I am expecting my summer to be hectic since I'm planning to work ahead on my thesis proposal but what I don't expect are the arduous school activities - almost a week of irritating street dancing practice for some event that will be held on May 8, the batch beach party that I'm not looking forward to, though I'm looking forward for it to be fun, I have a bad feeling about the said activity and when I have a bad feeling about something/someone; 75% of it comes true. I've run out of optimism considering there are lots of negative energy roaming not only in my customary feeling about school but also at home as well. The thing I now want most is a bigger space of freedom for myself which some people there would refuse giving me to because of the freakin' dangers outside this and that etc. etc. . I know they're being protective and all but I'm getting irritated about the ways they're doing to me. It's like living in a house arrest, I even got scolded one time for not asking permission to go to the city for spending some leisure time - WTF!

As I've been experiencing recently, it's been all fu**ed-up because I haven't seen these kinds of things coming around summer vacation. My plans are totally ruined and some free time are wasted because of these unexpected circumstances. Even some of my friends are snubbing me. Now, I really believe in the saying "Help yourself before helping others." - putting it into moral values, it's really on a sense of being selfish but what's the freakin' use of helping others when you yourself won't even benefit from it? nor will the people you've helped will help you in return? That's reality, and reality is a "give and take" system. You help me, I help you and vice versa. I'm still fuming mad on those people who I call "ingrates". Oh well, I really hope you'll have your days but I'm still glad to hear there are some people out there who would not hesitate to at least give some respect to me; without them, maybe I'll be battling those m***********s myself. Don't even think I have forgiven you. Making a ceasefire agreement is different from making a peace treaty.

Overall, my summer vacation so far is all but kaput.

Stairway to Hell

This post is a continuation to my previous post "Prediction Came Right".........

I was "partly" right about my predicition I can say. I came to school for some club meeting to be held to discuss the future activities within the group, and get my clearance signed. Well, they're late again as usual. I know it was coming because of the ever typical "filipino time" - the secondmost trait I hate about most filipinos, first would be the crab mentality.

I arrived in school with a gloomy mood because I had another argument with father almost every single morning (well, it's typical so I don't give it much of a big deal); seeing the sophomores playing basketball as usual and the rest of the campus being quiet and eerie at the same time. I was patiently waiting for them near at the Audio Visual Hall with a classmate helping me organize my Yu-Gi-Oh! deck of cards. I used to play this game alot, now I have no idea about the game. Maybe I need to refresh my mind about these matters, I 've been caught busy with video games recently. Back to the story, as I expected; we were again being ordered to do some school chores but I never got to do much so it saved me some time and energy for the activities I have to do later. Still, I was pretty much frustrated seeing the schedule of practices for the freakin' street dancing to be held in May 8. The batch beach party would also be held in May 5 and it's so damn freakin' compulsory. They're so dang presumptuous, one of the main reasons why I don't like most of the people there. What the hell would I do on those kinds of gatherings? Dammit. Even in our summer vacation, we'd still see much of school and it's seems like we'll never experience the whole 2 months of vacation basing on what's happening right now. I hate my high school life, hate it and enough said.

Frustrated by the schedule, I decided to get back home after all the things need to be done in school. The morning was disastrous but the rest of the day turned out fine.

And I'm going down...... all the way.

The Things Left Unsaid

I just want to clarify; before you leave me on commenting violent reactions, just know that I'm posting this just for the sake of "letting out the things left unsaid and those alike".

(I'd warn you that this post contains explicit language.)
Read at your own risk

I know that today's the right time of expressing this since now, I've nothing left much to lose.


Is it just me? or is the school fading in terms of quality education? because I can't seem to relate the experiences told by the previous batches about how memorable their life in the school is. Maybe we're not on it's "Golden Age" anymore. We're just like another great empire that is currently in decline, and hoping it won't be our downfall. Some of the good teachers have left and some slowly leaving the school although I can say there are still some few good teachers left.

Is it just me? or am I just that kind of person who can't seem to establish a connection with most of the people there? because despite of other people saying they're enjoying their life there. I don't. That's the truth and I haven't said this truth before because I know that they'll be huge risks that I've to suffer if I have to say this. Negative feedbacks, violent reactions, grudges are some examples of possibilities. Most people there are treating me shit (I don't want to censor these kinds of words anymore.). They gave me tonguelashing like I'm some perfect kind of person. I know that "diamond cannot be polished without friction"; but don't assume that all people can be disciplined through such insulting and hurtful words. I'm not from the army nor I'm from the Boy Scouts for crying out loud. I've also noticed that my friendships there are getting fake, freaking numbskulls. They're just after my guitar, they're just after my mp3 player, they're after my dvds, and I can even say that my "intermediate pad paper" has more friends than me you get what I mean? I've also done many things in order to find out such betrayal and I've felt the disgust in you and your fuckin' people alike because yeah, I know we couldn't even be friends anymore but at least you'll be gone by the next school year so I'll be glad not to hear anything from the freakin' people that I want to forget in my life, that includes you. Do you even think people are "godlike"? Hell no! That is why I don't trust people's facades anymore. They're just like wearing freakin' masks or doble kara or something like that. I'm not a saint, I commit mistakes sometimes, I have my downsides but the moment I've known and heard that you've been talking behind my back with some batchmate of mine some months, I've been pissed out to you ever since. What's hurful most is having the thought that I could trust you and you being "close to a saint". Turns out, you're just like any other people that I prefer to call "backstabbers". You, your and my so-called friends can just eat my dust. I know that someday karma's gonna get you all in some way. Fuckin' perfectionists, fuckin' backstabbers, fuckin' traitors.

And to the rest of those motherfuckers, do you even think I have no idea on what you're talking about me behind my back? I have my friends (and they've sweared it to God and their souls be damned forever if they're lying, so I can guarantee their honesty and besides that; they're moral abiding), who are telling me the sick and betraying things you've said to me; and now you're coming to me like we're some longtime friends? Fuck you! Just because you're some bigshot there doesn't mean you can bully and boast your "popularity" to me and my friends. You are just the same with the people I've been referring to in my previous paragraph. I know right now, you're not in the right terms of one of my classmates; and to think you're close friends before. Curse her too! You're all just the same but I'm glad my friends aren't like you people. If they are, then I wouldn't even think there's a significance in high school life and to the teachers who are doing their jobs well, then I appreciate and thank you for all the hardwork and for your understanding. I almost thought all the people there are different but I'm really really glad they're not like some motherfucking people I know since my first year there.


Just to quote a Greyhoundz song (Doble Kara), so any motherfucker who would read this would realize their own downsides instead of citing and criticizing mine. I hope you'll get hit "in your face" with this song because this is one of my favorite songs, this reminds me never to give my trust to anyone that anyone and to admit one of my biggest mistakes that is, by trusting you sick sons of bitches.

Doble Kara (by Greyhoundz)

Abot ng kamay sabay yakap
Bulungan "kamusta na kaibigan?
Ayos ba tayo jan?" tapik sa
Balikat sabay kindat" ingat
Nag-aalala lang" kala mo
Meron nga siyang pakialam pero
Pagkatalikod kanya-kanyang
Gawaan ng kwentong sino ang
Bida sino ang lamang kanya-
Kanyagn siraan 'alam mo ba yan
Si ganyan supot yan! mas astig
Ako jan!" at kung makatawa
Kala mo ang lupit lupit niya't
Magaling sa lahat kaso ikaw na
Nakangiting nakikinig huwag ka
Ng manghusga ano ba naman
Ang pinagkaiba natin sa kanila..

Nakakalimot nadudulas
Napupuno pero nagmamahal..
Nakakalungkot nakakatawa tao
Lang pero minsan.. daig mo pa
Ang ahas anong klaseng mukha
Kaya suot mo bukas daig mo pa
Ang ahas kaninong pwet kaya
Hahalikan mo bukas

Yan ka na naman kumakamada
Di ka na nahiya nagpupumilit
Makisiksik sa kahit di mo lungga
Di mo butas para maging pabigat
Manira managasa't magpahirap
Ng kapwa balimbing na
Kumakapit sa kung sino lang
Ang mainit ngunit maskadiri't
Masmabaho ka pa sa basura
Kapag naubusan pagkatapos
Mong mabusog ay tinatangay na
Ng hangin kung sa bagay.. para
Saan ba naman daw ang kaibigan
Kung hindi mo rin siya gagamitin

Nakakalimot nadudulas
Napupuno pero nagmamahal..
Nakakalungkot nakakatawa tao
Lang pero minsan.. daig mo pa
Ang ahas anong klaseng mukha
Kaya suot mo bukas daig mo pa
Ang ahas kaninong pwet kaya
Hahalikan mo bukas
Sinasayawan sinasabayan ang
Ihip at sipol ng hangin.

Nasilaw sa ilaw na dala ng
Panahon.. nakisawsaw sa balita
Para lang masabing andun siya
Nakiluksa sa drama ng iba
Kunwari naluha pa reklamo ng
Reklamo gagong di naman
Pumaparehas bidang bidang
Nakikisakay sa galing ng ibang
O-ats

Daig mo pa
Ang ahas anong klaseng mukha
Kaya suot mo bukas daig mo pa
Ang ahas kaninong pwet kaya
Hahalikan mo bukas
Sinasayawan sinasabayan ang
Ihip at sipol ng hangin.

.......

I love this song, the reality of the lyrics and powerful guitar play.

.......

ANO'ng mga klaseng mukha suot niyo bukas?
Kasi daig niyo pa ang ahas
Kaninong pwet kaya hahalikan mo bukas!!!!

Prediction Came Right

As I've said in my previous post, "it's gonna be a shitty day" and it did.

I went there to assess and rate the teachers. I wasn't even chosen to evaluate. Instead, I have to do some chores and some landscaping. Then came added insult to injury.... the month of April are planned with freakin' practices for our yet again another streetdance (let it all out: DAMMIT!), and the worse thing is; a research proposal for our thesis is an essential requirement for enrollment for the next school year, and not to mention another four hour school brigade to deal with.

I was unable to have my clearance completely signed so I guess I'll be back again tomorrow. Dang!

Prediction for tomorrow: Day will turn out initially great but shitty afterwards.

Let's see if I can do another accurate prediciton.

Update

Today's been dragging. I'm just downloading some mp3s from limewire, checking my friendster account, playing video games in my room, and updating this blog; but it's good news that mother's back from the trip. Now I can probably resume my research and ask for assistance.

I've grown addicted in eating the chocolates my father's brought from Manila. Butterfinger, Three Musketeers, and Milky Way to name a few. Better keep my sugar level balanced; don't want to experince Diabetes.

Finally, I've finished the game Bully, but technically it's not 100% completion; I still have many things to do before I could complete it fully. I only finished the entire storyline. I'm too lazy finishing the side missions. Well, I'm glad I've finished that game; next stop, Dawn of Mana.

Tomorrow's the assessment of teachers. I don't know what's gonna totally happen tomorrow, it'd only take some time and maybe finish off my clearance. It's the only nuisance I have to deal with as of late. I have a bad feeling about tomorrow, I think it's gonna turn shitty. No optimism for now, I've run out of it; maybe this June.

That's about it...... for now

Mundane

I was just browsing other people's blogs and found some blog accounts from the previous batch. Turns out, they all have the same topic; about Sir Jen's scolding (they're old blogposts). I didn't bother leaving a comment since the topics were outdated and I doubt if they still check their blogspot accounts.

I just had a very long conversation with a friend recently. We've talked about certain matters; it lasted for about 3 hours (conversation in ym, not on the phone). It's been nice to have someone who's trusted, most people I've met are just some sickos who just approach me when they're in trouble, fair weathered friends in short. We have certain things in common. We're both fans of the Detroit Pistons, we're both freaks in the field of History, and we're both underdogs in terms of competitions. You know what I mean?

I'm just plain glad today because I still have communication from the "outside world", and mother's coming back home tomorrow from Marawi. I haven't seen her in a week or so, and it's time to seek help from what my possible study's gonna be. I'm all f***ed up on that matter. I know it's too early to worry about that but I think it's better to plan be prepared earlier. I don't want to experience the things the previous batch had experienced. Last minute actions, 11th hour burning the midnight oil or something like that.