The Things Left Unsaid

I just want to clarify; before you leave me on commenting violent reactions, just know that I'm posting this just for the sake of "letting out the things left unsaid and those alike".

(I'd warn you that this post contains explicit language.)
Read at your own risk

I know that today's the right time of expressing this since now, I've nothing left much to lose.


Is it just me? or is the school fading in terms of quality education? because I can't seem to relate the experiences told by the previous batches about how memorable their life in the school is. Maybe we're not on it's "Golden Age" anymore. We're just like another great empire that is currently in decline, and hoping it won't be our downfall. Some of the good teachers have left and some slowly leaving the school although I can say there are still some few good teachers left.

Is it just me? or am I just that kind of person who can't seem to establish a connection with most of the people there? because despite of other people saying they're enjoying their life there. I don't. That's the truth and I haven't said this truth before because I know that they'll be huge risks that I've to suffer if I have to say this. Negative feedbacks, violent reactions, grudges are some examples of possibilities. Most people there are treating me shit (I don't want to censor these kinds of words anymore.). They gave me tonguelashing like I'm some perfect kind of person. I know that "diamond cannot be polished without friction"; but don't assume that all people can be disciplined through such insulting and hurtful words. I'm not from the army nor I'm from the Boy Scouts for crying out loud. I've also noticed that my friendships there are getting fake, freaking numbskulls. They're just after my guitar, they're just after my mp3 player, they're after my dvds, and I can even say that my "intermediate pad paper" has more friends than me you get what I mean? I've also done many things in order to find out such betrayal and I've felt the disgust in you and your fuckin' people alike because yeah, I know we couldn't even be friends anymore but at least you'll be gone by the next school year so I'll be glad not to hear anything from the freakin' people that I want to forget in my life, that includes you. Do you even think people are "godlike"? Hell no! That is why I don't trust people's facades anymore. They're just like wearing freakin' masks or doble kara or something like that. I'm not a saint, I commit mistakes sometimes, I have my downsides but the moment I've known and heard that you've been talking behind my back with some batchmate of mine some months, I've been pissed out to you ever since. What's hurful most is having the thought that I could trust you and you being "close to a saint". Turns out, you're just like any other people that I prefer to call "backstabbers". You, your and my so-called friends can just eat my dust. I know that someday karma's gonna get you all in some way. Fuckin' perfectionists, fuckin' backstabbers, fuckin' traitors.

And to the rest of those motherfuckers, do you even think I have no idea on what you're talking about me behind my back? I have my friends (and they've sweared it to God and their souls be damned forever if they're lying, so I can guarantee their honesty and besides that; they're moral abiding), who are telling me the sick and betraying things you've said to me; and now you're coming to me like we're some longtime friends? Fuck you! Just because you're some bigshot there doesn't mean you can bully and boast your "popularity" to me and my friends. You are just the same with the people I've been referring to in my previous paragraph. I know right now, you're not in the right terms of one of my classmates; and to think you're close friends before. Curse her too! You're all just the same but I'm glad my friends aren't like you people. If they are, then I wouldn't even think there's a significance in high school life and to the teachers who are doing their jobs well, then I appreciate and thank you for all the hardwork and for your understanding. I almost thought all the people there are different but I'm really really glad they're not like some motherfucking people I know since my first year there.


Just to quote a Greyhoundz song (Doble Kara), so any motherfucker who would read this would realize their own downsides instead of citing and criticizing mine. I hope you'll get hit "in your face" with this song because this is one of my favorite songs, this reminds me never to give my trust to anyone that anyone and to admit one of my biggest mistakes that is, by trusting you sick sons of bitches.

Doble Kara (by Greyhoundz)

Abot ng kamay sabay yakap
Bulungan "kamusta na kaibigan?
Ayos ba tayo jan?" tapik sa
Balikat sabay kindat" ingat
Nag-aalala lang" kala mo
Meron nga siyang pakialam pero
Pagkatalikod kanya-kanyang
Gawaan ng kwentong sino ang
Bida sino ang lamang kanya-
Kanyagn siraan 'alam mo ba yan
Si ganyan supot yan! mas astig
Ako jan!" at kung makatawa
Kala mo ang lupit lupit niya't
Magaling sa lahat kaso ikaw na
Nakangiting nakikinig huwag ka
Ng manghusga ano ba naman
Ang pinagkaiba natin sa kanila..

Nakakalimot nadudulas
Napupuno pero nagmamahal..
Nakakalungkot nakakatawa tao
Lang pero minsan.. daig mo pa
Ang ahas anong klaseng mukha
Kaya suot mo bukas daig mo pa
Ang ahas kaninong pwet kaya
Hahalikan mo bukas

Yan ka na naman kumakamada
Di ka na nahiya nagpupumilit
Makisiksik sa kahit di mo lungga
Di mo butas para maging pabigat
Manira managasa't magpahirap
Ng kapwa balimbing na
Kumakapit sa kung sino lang
Ang mainit ngunit maskadiri't
Masmabaho ka pa sa basura
Kapag naubusan pagkatapos
Mong mabusog ay tinatangay na
Ng hangin kung sa bagay.. para
Saan ba naman daw ang kaibigan
Kung hindi mo rin siya gagamitin

Nakakalimot nadudulas
Napupuno pero nagmamahal..
Nakakalungkot nakakatawa tao
Lang pero minsan.. daig mo pa
Ang ahas anong klaseng mukha
Kaya suot mo bukas daig mo pa
Ang ahas kaninong pwet kaya
Hahalikan mo bukas
Sinasayawan sinasabayan ang
Ihip at sipol ng hangin.

Nasilaw sa ilaw na dala ng
Panahon.. nakisawsaw sa balita
Para lang masabing andun siya
Nakiluksa sa drama ng iba
Kunwari naluha pa reklamo ng
Reklamo gagong di naman
Pumaparehas bidang bidang
Nakikisakay sa galing ng ibang
O-ats

Daig mo pa
Ang ahas anong klaseng mukha
Kaya suot mo bukas daig mo pa
Ang ahas kaninong pwet kaya
Hahalikan mo bukas
Sinasayawan sinasabayan ang
Ihip at sipol ng hangin.

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I love this song, the reality of the lyrics and powerful guitar play.

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ANO'ng mga klaseng mukha suot niyo bukas?
Kasi daig niyo pa ang ahas
Kaninong pwet kaya hahalikan mo bukas!!!!