Triangle of Friends

I've been browsing randomly at Yahoo! Answers and I find this reply quite interesting (it should be the best answer, but it is not....).

I'll just copy and paste it here

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Do you enjoy your friendships?...For sure – YES!...But please recollect when you've met your friends recently?...and called up?...and sent e-mail?...Ages and ages ago…


Contemporary life, with its tight schedules and constant lack of time and overloads, just do not give us FREE time for pleasant and interesting relations and meetings…They say: "Friends are thieves of time"…Work and family are considered to be the crucial values of a person's life…These are "MUSTS"…We must and we DO devote our life-time to the things…


Undoubtedly, there is "friendship" in the hot-list of human-life values…But please agree friendship is not the MUST…And this is really the most valuable and important aspect of friendship – FREEDOM…We are FREE here…free to choose time to get into touch with friends…free to choose place where we would love to be with them…free to choose way of spending time…and the best matter of friendship is freedom to be in the company of another person…In SUCH life we need it…We need take a breathe…Freedom…Friendship…

Who are the people whose company do we like sharing ?
Actually, what most people call their "circle of friends" more closely resembles "a triangle".


The base of the triangle – acquaintances. It is pleasant to be in an Acquaintance's company – he/she gives you sincere cordiality and feeds you with admiration and even more better if it is interesting – there is no need to find any another amusements any more…Well…the acquaintances are PLEASANT if it's the best case and they are NEEDFUL in the worst (if you're upset, they'll cheer you up, low self-confidence – they'll help you to get assertiveness, would like to have fun – you'll get it).


Then there are "core friends" in the middle. These we know by first name, and we see them somewhat regularly. The essence of the friendships is pleasant USE – expressing our views, reviving spirits, getting support. It's easy to strike up the friendship when your souls are in perfect harmony. "We DO understand each other so easily!"- and you can feel the real soul-mate in the person…



As well here are our Companion-in-arms – the people with whom we have common cause who we NEED for business affairs…probably this is the most worth friends' group…Friendship is luxury of human intercourse…but what is our reality, what the world where do we live in??? A lot of obligations to be fulfilled, a lot of works to be done SO it's very valuable and useful if we derive support and help from the friendships to deal with all this inevitable burden…Thank you, our Companions…


At the top of the triangle are intimate friends. These people are closely involved in our lives, and their names are likely engraved on our hearts. Mostly there is ONLY intimate friend in our lives – the BEST friend – as the BEST concerns the unique things only. Here we feel FREE open all our heart sincerely and easily…and we feel FREE to turn to the friend in our hour of need…We are proud of having such friend…Best friend it's who rescues when it's extremely necessary…Savior…Asylum…


So…Please think it over…Who needs friendship most of all?...

Well…Friendship is possible and very precious part of a self-confident and strong people's life…but they do not need friendship and friends seriously.
Learn how to be the Friend…Learn how to be needful and reliable – in such a way you'll be able to help your friends…BUT…from the other hand – you should grow, work for improving yourself so you have need in friends less and less…

You must outlast longing for friendship…as every another weakness.
For sure…there are Childhood and Youth when a person do really NEED friendship…all the young stick together: they feel freer to express themselves, easier to defend…but you should grow up and stand on your own feet…to get STRONG…to live STRONGLY and FREE.

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And I totally agree with it.
There are times I'd think having lots of friends is overrated.
I've got 500+ "friends" in friendster and how many of them are my "comrades-in-arms"?
Acquaintances maybe, I've got around 150 but the rest of them?
Maybe they only added me to boast their fs accounts of "having many friends".

and as I've said...
"OVERRATED!"

11/15/08

I find it hard to believe the semestral break's almost over.

Maybe because I still have some sh*t to do, you know the usual stuff - assignments, projects, reportings (curse that sh*t), exams; you all know the rest.

I'm still savoring the moment through playing pc games and watching NBA basketball. I was ecstatic to see Pistons won against the Warriors. Even though I'm not an Allen Iverson fan those days, I'm totally on the AI bandwagon but I'm still wondering - what the hell's wrong with Rip? (Francis, if you're reading this - WTF is wrong is Rip?).

Furthermore, they beat the UNDEFEATED LOS ANGELES LAKERS (they aren't now) in their own court. That's got to be impressive.

With the NBA set aside...
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Today, I took the entrance exam for Xavier University. It was quite easy. If you put it on a difficulty barometer; it'd be as easy as the entrance examination in UST. With that said, I just want to clarify that I'm not BRAGGING or INSURING I'm going to pass the test. If I thought that was easy, I'm sure everybody does thinks the same way... it's still competition on the students to get some slots into their desired schools. Damn it!

So far, I've taken:

UP (I don't even dream about it, slim chance)
ATENEO (nah, even if I pass they wouldn't let me go there because of the expensive tuition fee, and yeah I won't qualify for the financial aid)

UST (so far, my biggest chance)

and now Xavier University (well, same as UST.. we'll see)

After this, maybe I'd play some games then decide to "hit the books".
Lots of crap to do on Monday.


Also....

I want to thank everyone who spent at least 2 minutes of their life to greet me on my 16th year. Appreciate the greetings ALOT (there were only around 5 who greeted me last year excluding the family).

PT Week

PT Week sucks big time!

Calculus...............
Physics...............
Chemistry............
Computer Education........

etc. etc.

Let's get it over with

PS

Californication's still playing in my head but it's all good.

Earworms

earworms n. - is a term for a portion of a song or other musical material that becomes "stuck" in a person's "head" or repeats against one's will within one's mind.

Have you experienced this?

Many times have I experienced these kinds of situations. The songs just can't stop playing in my mind and I don't know if whether it is a good thing or the other way around.

These following songs that keep backtracking in my head are as follows:

3. Boys Don't Cry (The Cure)

I don't really know this band but this song is just plain honesty. Even I sing it sometimes. My friend also likes this song, stating "he could definitely relate to the lyrics".

"I just keep on laughing hiding the tears in my eyes coz boys don't cry."




2. Disconnection Notice (Pupil)

DISCO---NNECTION NOTICE!

This has got to be my favorite song in their second album (Wildlife). The intro is great, the melody is great, and Ely's "turn off the lights" is simply catchy. I was disappointed with their Monobloc music video, I love the song but just didn't like the vid. Good thing, this song compensates their previous vid.

"Turn off the lights!"

*Also, I love the music video* In my opinion, this vid surpasses the Dulo ng Dila music video. Really, no bullsh*t.




1. Californication (Red Hot Chili Peppers)

This has got to be my first, every time I stay idle I either hum the tunes or sing the song.

I haven't forgotten this song but after recently listening to it in youtube, the tune are just so addicting. Anthony's lyrics are weird (the RHCP's lyrics are always weird), Flea's bass play is just darn wicked but the thing that is most catchy in this song is got to be John's handpicking. Listening to his picking together with Flea's bass playing is freakin' awesome. The first I saw the music video, it was around in 2000 (I think...), I did not mind the lyrics at first; rather, I appreciated the tune and of course the "video game" music vid.

"Psychic spies from China's trying to steal your mind's elation...."
"Dream of Californication"

Back from the USTET

Finally, I just came back from Cebu a few hours ago. I went there in order to take the USTET -or- University of Santo Tomas Entrance Test. I've been reviewing heavily on Science and English because I've read some posts on the forums regarding Science and English being the sh*tty part with Math being the cakewalk part of the test. Even with the experiences of taking those kinds of test (PSHS, TCSHS, UP, ADMU, MTG, and now UST), I still grow tense on those situations. I tend to move around in order to loosen myself from anxiety and well, at least it worked.

A friend of mine decided to tag along with me and father to Cebu so it's not really a lonesome trip. I went to school in the morning of Friday but later went home to prepare my things for the travel. There were five of us actually; one decided to come with me, two others travelled a different path, and one traveled with her parents.

I'm frustrated with those two hoodlums I'm referring to in the previous paragraph. When you try to talk to them, they reply in a foolish manner that it ticks you off. Those MF's!

Anyway, so much with those "maricons"........

We decided to ride in Weesam rather than Ocean Jet. Weesam is a bit more stable compared to the latter, especially in violent sea currents. Well, that's what I heard.

*Also, aboard the boat; most of the passengers I've seen are Koreans. I could tell by their faces and the way they speak. Yep, they're not chinese, they're not japanese, they're koreans.*

(Anyway, that doesn't matter....)

We arrived on the pier around 6 in the evening. One of my father's friends picked us up and went to some restaurant to go bite to eat, and it was freakin' delicious. A lovely dinner is enough to make my day, I've been hungry for hours.

Afterwards, we went to a hotel named "GV Towers Hotel" to check in. It was a decent hotel. Nice room, nice beds, air conditioned, and it has a television so it wasn't bad. Thank goodness we didn't sleep on some sh*tty place.

--The test proper--

My brother said it is an easy test and so do the other posts in forums (Pinoyexchange to be specific), but I never thought it'd be that easy. Not to brag, but math truly is easy on that test. One of those questions states "Evaluate, square root of 16+9". Overall, it was okay; a little bit easy but it was time pressuring, as usual.

I really do hope I pass that freakin' test.

Oh well....

After the test, we decided to eat on this fastfood called "Space Burgers". There are so many good eateries in Cebu, and they're not the common ones found in Tagbilaran. Now, I'm craving for grilled burgers especially with mustard. Yum!

Well, after that.. that's about it. We went to the pier to go home.

Those 1 and a half days I've been in Cebu really seemed like a week. It's one of those expressions where you'd say "thank God Tagbilaran is not like Cebu City".

..... I sure do hope they'd have Space burgers here in Tagbilaran. Damn, I'm still thinking of it. Grilled steak with bacon and mustard.

***I'm tired so I apologize if my post is not that organized but I'm not gonna sleep now, not yet. Tomorrow is when I work my ass off finishing those assignments and studying calculus for incoming quizzes***

Last HS Acquaintance Party

Tomorrow's events include school works in the mornings and the acquaintance party at night. It will be the last acquaintance party I'll ever attend in HS (unless I fail to pass in HS, God forbid). So, I might just well spend every time of it to make it worth it.

I remain optimistic in the event and I hope it wouldn't mess me up.

Enjoy it while it lasts (because the day after tomorrow, I have a bad feeling about it).

Discourtesy

I'm so furious about multicab drivers's discourtesy towards their passengers (well, specifically me). Me and my friend were riding this multicab and as we arrived at our destination, my friend disembarked so I was the one paying the fare for the both of us then when I was about to drop off then transportation suddenly moved and the driver started scolding me for not telling him I was the one who was dropping off. What a dumbass!

This wasn't the first time that has happened. around a few years ago I was scolded by some driver because "I rode his transportation because the destination is bound for some damn place and not mine". What's worse is the lady in the frontseat backed up the driver. Well suckers, your "route" will pass by our house so I rode yours.... what's the world going on? Is it going bizarre and topsy-turvy?

These public transportation drivers should get some ass-whoopin' discipline and do something about their discourtesy with their passengers (WELL, AS I'VE SAID - SPECIFICALLY ME!). I really hope you get struck by karma.

Sitrep

My second week in the school year is over and it's doing fine for me.

I was so glad that we finally have our pc connected to the dsl. I (WE!) have been waiting for this moment to come ever since we had our internet connection connected. Right now, we're non stop on downloading mp3s, videos, and games. It's Saturday now so I think I need to relax more then hit the books later in the night... where all is quiet.

Furthermore, I'm getting a hang of calculus and physics although I'm still pissed with chemistry. I hope it stays this way (the calculus and physics thingy I mean). My performance in school is decent in my opinion but I'm not flunking in tests - at least, not yet.

There's still many crap to deal with (that includes homework on the weekends and passing my requirements on time).

Anyway, have you ever experienced having memory loss? Dang this really bugs me alot. I tend to frequently forget things time to time. I'll just find a cure for it or at least to minimize the ailment. I'm so sick of forgetting where I placed my pen, that really wreaks.



Overall, I've had a good run as of yet. I better keep this up.

P.S.
Is it just me? or do some people try to avoid me at all times? I'm just wondering. I'm not giving THEM the benefit of the doubt but it's just a thought.

Losing Streak

I just noticed today's D-Day (June 6) you know.... the allied invasion of fortress Europe?
Well, I have thought of it because today's game 1 of the NBA Finals bet. the Lakers and the Celtics. With all the hype in tv I thought it was helluva series.

Turns out, game 1 is so boring.
The Celtics took the game though so I was a little disappointed. I want Lakers to take this one.

Anyways, today's been surprising. A friend of mine knocked on our gates to watch the game. It really was surprising because I thought it was the same beggar who goes knocking our gates (well, sounds like him though). LOL!

We again played NBA 2k8 in my playstation 2 console and most of the time I get my ass kicked by his offensive plays. I just cant seem to defeat him by my place (though I beat him once today, I wasn't convinced of the victory)

To make that long story short... I need to find some strategy to beat his ass in this game. I only managed to beat him twice out of our six games (Madden Football included).

I need to end this losing streak.
updates soon

Thoughts

Things have been going smoothly recently. I'm still in the progress of finishing my thesis proposal but I decided to take a break and planned to resume working on Monday.

I just finished playing Shinobido Imashime and it was helluva game. It reminds me of the Tenchu series I used to play when I was years younger. Now, I'm still trying to figure out the puzzle in Shadowhearts. This time, I won't use the walkthrough and try to solve it for myself even if it'll take me hours. Who says video games only make you dumber? Lol

I'm in the mood to write this because the Pistons take game 2 in Boston, which handed them their first loss at home this postseason (and oh, their first loss at home in the season also). That was helluva game, all of them played good but it worries me a little to see Ray Allen out of his shooting slump, Pierce shooting 3's and Garnett hitting those mid range jumpers and fadeaways. Could somebody guard KG? Dang

Good thing about the game is... Chauncey's back. It was a good game for him and I was glad (WE, Piston fans were glad to see this). Every second was breathtaking and I'm currently bragging this to some of my friends right now especially those Celtic fans.

I was laughing while reading one of my friend's blogs concerning the quotes of some Celtic fans he posted there. They were arguing and blaming each other for the loss - finding alibis too. You should see it (click The Command Post on my "Other blogs to see" section to find out).


Updates soon....

Recent Loss of Common Sense

I don't know why but recently, I've lost my common sense since this summer.

Things like:

-where's my ballpen? (turns out, it's on my ear all along)
-why is there no dial tone when I try to connect to the internet? (turns out, I didn't connect the wire to the pc.) lol

Maybe it's because I've rested too much on my vacation that I'm not more cautious enough. One time, I asked father for assistance and when he found out what the problem is, he called me dumb to not have discovered it. I admit, I can lose my common sense at times (oh come on, who doesn't?) but it's natural right? My valedictorian friend even loses his common sense, t'was hilarious though.

With this experienced, I've learned three things. First thing's first - look before you leap and second - never seek help immediately and third - as much as possible; never seek help from your fathers. They're the most insensitive kinds of people if you ask me. Do they even know what euphemism is?

Maybe I'll be more cautious next time and I hope I could regain my common sense back.

Rifts with Pop

Anyone who ever has problems with their fathers?
I have.

I don't know why I can't seem to get along with that person. Seems like everytime we get into a conversation, it always ends up with a mess.

Like the time I was seeking help with the math problem I was having a hard time so solve. Dang; he's so impatient that he'd call me dumb by not solving it. No wonder, his students are having a hard time. I could heavily relate.

Also the time, I was seeking help from my thesis proposal; I asked him if this research was okay and he replied with a provocative mood (can this be found in Bohol? try to find it; you can't find it in this place). I was so steamed up that I talked back and he's like cursing me. Dang! It's really hard to get along with the guy. I wonder why he has so many friends from the outside. Right now, I'm seeking help with my mother about my thesis proposal project in school. Father's too "less comfortable to be with".

Well, come to think of it; he spends more time with his friends than in the house. Oh well, can't blame him and besides; it's more of mutualism if you ask me. He's happy with his friends, and I'm happy by not having him in the house. (I'm speaking this honestly, if you'd say to talk to him then you have no idea what I'm going through)

I'd addressed this to the people who are hurt by my "hurtful words":

If you say you'd hate me because I'm too honest with you all then wait till you meet my pops. He's so honest that he doesn't use euphemism at all. If he thinks you're stupid then he'd say it in front of your face: "You're stupid". Well, at least I know when to keep my mouth shut and I use euphemism.

That's the truth and nobody could suppress it.

Bottom line is, he's still my pop but he better learn how to be "less honest" if he don't want all his sons against him (no wonder my brothers are having a hard time with him, now I can totally relate).

Advance happy father's day anyway.

Anyone who ever has problems with their fathers?
I have.

I don't know why I can't seem to get along with that person. Seems like everytime we get into a conversation, it always ends up with a mess.

Like the time I was seeking help with the math problem I was having a hard time so solve. Dang; he's so impatient that he'd call me dumb by not solving it. No wonder, his students are having a hard time. I could heavily relate.

Also the time, I was seeking help from my thesis proposal; I asked him if this research was okay and he replied with a provocative mood (can this be found in Bohol? try to find it; you can't find it in this place). I was so steamed up that I talked back and he's like cursing me. Dang! It's really hard to get along with the guy. I wonder why he has so many friends from the outside. Right now, I'm seeking help with my mother about my thesis proposal project in school. Father's too "less comfortable to be with".

Well, come to think of it; he spends more time with his friends than in the house. Oh well, can't blame him and besides; it's more of mutualism if you ask me. He's happy with his friends, and I'm happy by not having him in the house. (I'm speaking this honestly, if you'd say to talk to him then you have no idea what I'm going through)

I'd addressed this to the people who are hurt by my "hurtful words":

If you say you'd hate me because I'm too honest with you all then wait till you meet my pops. He's so honest that he doesn't use euphemism at all. If he thinks you're stupid then he'd say it in front of your face: "You're stupid". Well, at least I know when to keep my mouth shut and I use euphemism.

That's the truth and nobody could suppress it.

Bottom line is, he's still my pop but he better learn how to be "less honest" if he don't want all his sons against him (no wonder my brothers are having a hard time with him, now I can totally relate).

Advance happy father's day anyway.

Conversation with Mr. Suave

I've chatted with a fellow fan and also a friend..
He's asked me to post this conversation in my blog.

So I did

:)

I've cut the rest of the conversation that doesn't involve this topic
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MR_Suave2008: i have 3 comments a week ago from that spur cell conversation right
LJ: I'll comment on yours
LJ: yes.. that 3 comments
MR_Suave2008: lol
MR_Suave2008: you saw it
MR_Suave2008: lol
MR_Suave2008: Gay Terapist
MR_Suave2008: lol
MR_Suave2008: i said that
MR_Suave2008:
LJ: yep
LJ:
MR_Suave2008: i talked dirty here
MR_Suave2008: lol
MR_Suave2008: Spur Cell
MR_Suave2008: lol
MR_Suave2008: He need to drink a spur cell in able to see his team win
MR_Suave2008: lol
LJ: mwahaha, that fool's shut up
LJ: never bothered me again
LJ: at least, for now
MR_Suave2008: The Cavaliers need to be honest for their Cavalier Queen James
MR_Suave2008: and spare their lives for her
MR_Suave2008: lol
MR_Suave2008: lets make lebron as a pussy lady
MR_Suave2008: lol
MR_Suave2008: put our conversation on your blog
MR_Suave2008: lol
MR_Suave2008: last year
MR_Suave2008: there was a lady named
MR_Suave2008: Ms Lebron James
MR_Suave2008: a Queen out of Cleveland
MR_Suave2008: along with her BITCH team
MR_Suave2008: her team entered in the room where baby's were generated
MR_Suave2008: it is
MR_Suave2008: in AT&T
MR_Suave2008: center
MR_Suave2008: in San Antonio
LJ: haha, you're really enraged with the Cavs
MR_Suave2008: the Home of the SPur Cells
LJ: and Spurs
MR_Suave2008: lol
MR_Suave2008: Now the finals starts
MR_Suave2008: war games in bed
MR_Suave2008: Lebron Starts Licking the Spur Cells
MR_Suave2008: and Enjoying riding
MR_Suave2008: after riding
MR_Suave2008: doing a doggy
MR_Suave2008: then after wards
MR_Suave2008: lick another spur cell
MR_Suave2008: she said
MR_Suave2008: ooooooooooooooooooooooohhhhhhh
MR_Suave2008: more manu more!!!
MR_Suave2008: lol
MR_Suave2008:
MR_Suave2008: and bowen squats
MR_Suave2008: and lebron enjoys the showdown and told her lads
MR_Suave2008: come on lads
MR_Suave2008: lets lick a spur cell
MR_Suave2008: they enjoyed
LJ: post it in a spurs forum
LJ: lol
MR_Suave2008: and the spur cells poisoned lebron's team and her kingdom
MR_Suave2008: the bitch cavalier kingdom had ended
MR_Suave2008: and the spur cells poisoned them
MR_Suave2008: lol
MR_Suave2008: did i make lebron a bitchy cocky lady
MR_Suave2008: lol
MR_Suave2008:
LJ:
LJ: dang, you really got pissed with those teams?
MR_Suave2008: yeah yeah yeah
MR_Suave2008: lol
MR_Suave2008: lebron is the bitch of the NBA
MR_Suave2008: and the spurs are the poisonous team
MR_Suave2008: in terms of their spur cell
MR_Suave2008: makamandag
MR_Suave2008: lol
MR_Suave2008: bruce bowen is their best production of poisonous spur cell
MR_Suave2008: lol
MR_Suave2008: post it to your blog
MR_Suave2008: name me as the one who hated san antonio and cleveland so much
MR_Suave2008: lol
MR_Suave2008: ei upnext this
MR_Suave2008: post all things i said
MR_Suave2008: against san antonio and cleveland
MR_Suave2008: lol
MR_Suave2008: the story
LJ: hehe, I'll post yours after I've finished writing my recent entry
rjd22_1789: lol
LJ:
MR_Suave2008: that will be fun
MR_Suave2008: lol

Concealed Feelings

Many people would dare ask me this question : "how's your lovelife?"

......................my answers:

- my lovelife's dead
- numb
- I'm single

That question prompted me to write this entry.

There's always this teenage issue on having these kinds of feelings towards the opposite sex.


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My First Crush
("It was natural" Regardless)
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The first time I've experienced this was way back in Grade 1. It was only an obssession; just looking at her, and of course I wasn't being serious with it because I regard that feeling back then as only natural and temporary. She was nice, attractive, intelligent, and a shy one I may say but she has a friendly attitude and somewhat an approachable being despite her shyness. We became friends, I was crushing her but never made plans to push the relationship better because as I've said; I was already contented being friends and I was really ignorant that time that I thought relationships really are easy. Well, she transferred to some other school around a year later so... poof.... just gone like a bubble. Our ties stopped after that. I never saw her again.

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Second Crush
(the longest time I've had a crush on, and the most memorable as of yet)
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On my grade 3 (or is it grade 4)... I had a crush on this girl. Well, still she was smart, attractive, and also has that "friendly" attitude. We started being close friends since then, but my classmates started teasing me to an extent that we (me and my crush back then) only communicate through letters. Haha, that was fun, and romantic; right now I find myself funny looking back at my elementary years. We did maintained our friendship; we never got into quarrels. She was the only one that I think is the friendliest so far. I did managed to admit my feelings to her but she never felt "uneasy" about it. She was still friendly and cheerful, like nothing's ever happened; she was able to maintain a friendly attitude towards me and I've greatly appreciated that. Just months ago, I went to my former school to get information about my height and weight (it's a PE thing) in their clinic when I happen to meet her. I said hi and she said so likewise. It's a nice feeling after all. Although, I found out that she's currently in a relationship; it's still fine with me. Oh well, thanks for the time you've spent with me and we've had a good run. Best wishes to ya. (this message is to her, if you manage to read this... :) )

The reason why I've lost touch with her was because I transferred to another school. Since then, I've lost touch to most of my friends there, especially to her; but I've regained communications to some of my friends through friendster and yahoo! messenger. It's nice to have talked to them again. Good times, good times.

The times spent with her are the times I'd never forget... ever. You've got my word on it.

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Third Crush
(the first time I've felt depressed about having a crush on)
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The time I transferred to my new school. I really had bad times initially primarily because I haven't adjusted to the new environment I was in currently. I was in a bad mood back then because I failed in a test which I don't grow accustomed of, when one sophomore (of course, I was a freshman back then) approached and introduced herself to me. I was startled that time because dang, this girl just came to me all of a sudden and out of nowhere just to introduce herself to the "new face". I did introduced my name and I found out that she was always smiling that time.

After that, I was asking some of my classmates for her cellphone number because I was willing to really be friends with her. We've been texting back and forth to an extent that I've spent so much on the cellphone load. (I never realized there was unlimited texting.. lol).

With the cheery face and friendly personality; we became friends... almost, close friends even.

The days passed, we are having a good relationship; a friendly relationship. I admit, her smiles would cheer me up everyday we've met each other. I thought at that time, this might turn out good. I've confessed my feelings to her but only through text, I've no guts telling her in person. I was feeling a little bit "uncomfortable" back then. We continue talking only through private messaging in friendster and sometimes, texting.

I've never imagined it'd turn out the other way around.

Things just changed, mainly because the others started teasing me and her; that might've prompted her to act different towards me. I even hear rumours of her talking behind my back. Now I feel uneasy even when I think or hear her name. It's a livin' nightmare I tell ya. I've spent 3 school years feeling uneasy. I don't know why who's really changed.. her or me but one thing's for sure... it never stayed the same again.

We've made peace and reconciled each other before she graduated. Best wishes. Thanks for the time spent of course, I meant the friendship.

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Intermission
(A Nice Feeling)
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I found out that one of my friends has a crush on me (I found it out on her friendster account.. on the comments page). Well, it was nice knowing that someone finally admires you but the reason I couldn't feel the same because.. you might not believe this, but "we never actually met in person". We just happen to know each other in MIRC - "a chatroom". Well, I don't know why she feels that way to me even though we haven't actually met but I'm still glad that someone would care for me that much. That explains the "friendship gifts" she'd sent me. In return, I send her some "burned cds" of her favorite artists and bands. It was a worthwhile gift. (If you're reading this, you better take care of those cds. Next time, it won't be free... lol)

I've heard that you have a new relationship... congratulations and I wish you all the best in life. Rock and roll and I hope the friendship won't change.

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Fourth Crush (Current)
(I won't risk it, friendship's already been ok)
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I'm currently crushing on this girl. One thing about her is that "she's always cheerful" everytime I see her. Like she's most of the time "laughing" which makes me cheerful and all that. We're not that close but we're still having a friendly relationship. There are many gaps in between but I'm already glad and contented that I get to see her at times and see that "smile". I won't risk the chance; that'd be terrible it THE PAST would happen again.

Thing is: I'm still crushing on her... and currently am. :)


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CONCLUSION
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Having these kinds of feelings ain't bad. There's nothing wrong with it, of course unless, you're taking it too much. You know what they say "The Unexpected always impact us the most" and I still agree with it up to this day.

To all the people I've addressed above (if you happen to read this).. thanks for the inspiration, for the memories, and for the time I've spent with you. It was a worthwhile run, and I'll never forget you. Good luck and may God be with ya all.

Feels good to reminisce all this time. Makes me feel strange about it but it was a worthwhile write.

NO REGRETS AT ALL

NOTE:
I'm sorry if I can't put proper english on this entry. I just feel "strange" when writing this one that I couldn't even write english that well. With the addition that my head's aching all this time.

Ecstatic

I woke up early at around 3 am because brother's tuning up the volume while watching tv (yes, he's awake at midnight, sleeps in the morning). Since I can't go back to sleep, I just went to the living room, turned on the pc, then started connecting to the internet.

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At around 8, me and mother decided to go to church for a change of pace (yes, we don't go to church that often). I was a little bit pissed out since the mass we've entered is entirely visayan. I'm really having a hard time keeping up with the priest's lectures here and lecture that. The important thing is, I was able to go to church and I'm expecting the person "above" would be happy about this. Hallelujah!

We went to BQ to buy a pair of slippers for our freakin' street dancing. I also bought a nitro internet card. I'm tired of using PLDT vide. It gets slow and eventually goes down after around every 20-35 minutes. I have to reconnect the connection in order to resume my surfing. Nitro's been not that much of a problem but it's too damn slow. Oh well, you can't get the best of both worlds if your internet connection is "dial up" only.

Funny thing about today is that brother challenged me to play against him in Tekken 5. He always use Hwoarang so I used my favorite character, Law. I kicked his ass often and boy, his cursing is like music of victory to my ears (seriously, I've been waiting for this moment ever since the day he started beating me up often in fighting games). I always use this "spinning kick" and uses punch combos that even his Hwoarang can't even counter with his "X,X,X,O" usual combos. Of course, his every loss has lame excuses such as "the controller is jammed", "his character can't block", or his favorite excuse "chamba, or lucky".

After his excessive cursing, he decided to play UFC instead; in the first 10 games I always beat his ass through striking (he uses submission btw). As usual, he uses his tiring lame excuses but he was able to catch up on me and once he finally went ahead of me by one 1 victory, he quit and said it's over.. saying I lost and I'm a loser. I find it funny because, he quitted playing only after he went ahead of me. I've been ahead of him most of the time. Now who's the sore loser now? mwahah... don't forget Tekken. I've swept your ass.

Beating brother in a video game is like achieving something extraordinary. His curses and his loss inspires me to further beat him in a video game. The last time I won against him, he punched me several times, banged the controller then walked out . That was a painful, but sweet victory. That was the only time back then I dominated him in fighting games.

Now, I don't want to challenge him again. It's a no win situation anyway. You lose, he brags about it in the house. You win, he punches you and says I'm just lucky. Bottomline now is.... I KICKED HIS ASS!!!! Mwahaha!

After that, it was much pretty boring the rest of the evening so I won't bother posting the rest of the events after that.

And let me reiterate this again; I KICKED HIS ASS!!! Mwahaha!

Tomorrow's gonna be a long haul. I hate going back to school but oh well, I have to submit my written articles to our school paper editor-in-chief for publishing.

I love this day.

Prolongation

It goes on and on - brother's still using the load of the internet connection, my favored team is still on the slump, and it still feels depleting at most. This summer just keeps worse than usual.

Today's still one of those days where you are feeling pumped up at the beginning of the day but still ends up short. There's always someone or something that could easily ruin my day. Firstly, the Pistons lost in game 3 in Philadelphia which makes it bad at their situation, though I'm confident they could climb their way back up and win the series; I'm still having doubts about their head coach Flip Saunders. Dang!

Well, it isn't much of a day breaker because it's nothing concerning my personal life - but after that, arguments with father started; because I already have this reflex that I'd talk back everytime he'll say something provocative to me. Dammit, could I be completely happy in a day for once? The school year's over but there's still plenty of sh*t to deal with. I don't have any problems with the unsubmitted articles of the school paper since I've already finished it; but the street dancing practice will resume this Monday (which I think is already useless since we're all familiar with the stepping and for goodness sake, we've been dancing the tiring and tedious steppings ever since the summer vacation hasn't started yet. What makes it worse is that there's still a thing called "thesis proposal" that needs work. The reasons why I haven't started yet firstly, because our internet connection's so darn slow, it'd hardly load up friendster. It'd take you luck to be able to log in to friendster, yahoo mail, and yahoo messenger simultaneously. Second, I don't have much savings left to go to some internet cafe to research; and third, my parents won't lend me some money (oh yeah I almost forgot, they haven't payed their debts... 1000 php!. Which makes it, not "lending" but paying back their debts).

Brother's still whining around the house so it makes it an addition to my irritations today. The family's not been that peaceful lately. There's still arguments around. Well, it's natural if you ask me but as of now, it's been "more than natural". It sucks really. I can't wait for this to end. I'm still hoping for a better vacation this May. April's not been smooth for me and for all of us (I'm referring to my batchmates).

Since the prologation continues, I logged in to the internet to check in the forums (our school forum mostly, and yes; so lucky to have logged in.. now it's my yahoo messenger that's hardly been loading). I've posted some topics there when some schoolmate made me a little irritated and disturbed today. Everytime I make a post, he'll always respond "against" it. I kind of find his post "infuriating" but I remain "low" because you don't want to go against somebody that's older than you. To them, you're always one the "wrong side".. know what I mean? His posts reminds me of that psycho who pm'ed me saying offensive messages. I find the people around me today, "snobbish" and "odious". Maybe it's a sudden summer mood swing perhaps?


To the person that I'm referring to on the previous paragraph: If you're reading this, then please don't bother commenting to me about offensive remarks. I'm already furious at reading your messages on the forums, don't make it worse by commenting on it here. This is where I speak my mind and nobody's gonna suppress me.

With that said,

Most of my frustrations today have been posted here, so it'd feel relieving to have posted it here.

By the way:

It's been awhile since I went to church so I'll go there tomorrow for enlightenment and a little "peace of mind".

04/22/08

THOUGHTS ABOUT THE PLAYOFFS:

Dang! Wizards and Pistons lost! Father's been so happy about the news lately, since he's both Cavs and a diehard Laker fan. Oh well, it's still game 1 - remember the Nuggets-Spurs last playoffs? Nuggets upset the Spurs game 1 but SA went on to win the series 4 game straight. Good news is, Utah take game 2 against Houston which make it 2-0 Jazz lead series.

It'd be no surprise for me if Phoenix gets their ass kicked by San Antonio - everytime they meet in a playoff series; they (Phx) always get eliminated by SA - it was since Marbury was still a Sun (remember the buzzer beater he hit on game 1? that was pure luck).


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It was so disappointing that many of the games we've bought didn't play in our console. It was like around 12 out of 25 games were only functional. I'm pretty sure it has something to do with the BIOS configuration in the PS2 and since the ones we bought the games from were from Manila, and he uses a boxed set console (the original size of the PS2; large.. compared to ours; the resized one). Well, I'm still happy some were fine especially some RPGs and hack and slash games. I was gonna play them when our club moderator (which also happens to be one of my teacher) surprisingly called me through the phone just recently; it was all about the articles I have to submit in order to have it published in the school paper - well, I haven't even started yet so it's going to be a long road. Although, our editor in chief texted me about the articles, he said to submit it in Monday. I thought it was NEXT monday but turns out, it's this Monday; probably the reason why maam called to notify me. Dang!

Oh well, maybe I'll just stop playing games for a while and better get to it - after I finished everything I have to do in the net.

Temporary Breather

Thank goodness, the scheduled practices for this week are over.

Brother just came back from Manila around yesterday so I don't think I can use the internet that often, just so you know.

All we ever do there to enjoy ourselves were playing hoops with some friends and some schoolmates. One thing I noticed is that they always leave me wide open so I took advantage of the big space and hit several jumpers (including 2 clutch shots that won our game); no bullsh*t. There's one of my batchmate who isn't really a basketball enthusiasts but dang!; he hit 4 straight jumpshots against our opponents so yeah, you shouldn't judge a person by it's appearance and I hope this keeps going because with me being "underestimated" I could really get wide open looks. Although I could see our opponents not playing their best; I mean come on, they're always doing silly alley-oops, fancy layups and putbacks but come one, they could've been played their A game against us.

The best moment I've ever done in basketball is me hitting 5 straight jump shots including 1 three pointer; well, to some who are really good at basketball, it's nothing to brag but to me... for a person who only plays basketball on video games, it's not bad isn't it? The only reason I think I hit many jumpers because of the same thing - WIDE OPEN LOOKS!

All I could think of now are my thesis proposal and the NBA Playoffs but since I don't want to talk about my thesis proposal (strictly confidential); then I'd just post here my insights about the playoffs.

The NBA regular season is over; now it's PLAYOFF time!

It's really hard to predict who will emerge champs this season (the Celtics best season record ain't a guarantee - remember the Mavs?), but I'll still root for my favorite teams to take the gold all the way namely:

New Orleans Hornets
- At last, a healthy lineup of Chris Paul, Peja Stojakovic, and Tyson Chandler; the only reason they didn't make it to the playoffs 2 seasons straight was because of an unhealthy roster. Now, they got a chance to prove they got the shot at the title though their disadvantage would be the lack of playoff experience.

Washington Wizards
- Agent Zero aka Gilbert Arenas is back and so is Caron Butler. I really hope their offensive power could knock out "King James and his kingdom". It's so nice to shut the Cavs' fans yaps about their ranting and worshipping of "Lebron". I'm not saying Lebron's a bad player or anything, I just hate one man teams (even if they got Ben Wallace and Sczerbiak; it's still Lebron's team). Long story short, I hope they could eliminate the Cavs - I believe Agent Zero could do that and he'll have his chance to redeem himself concerning 2 years ago when he missed the two clutch free throws that could've kept the Wizards alive (or probably win the series).

and lastly

Detroit Pistons

-If Arenas and the Wizards get eliminated, I hope Detroit could finish the job. The full review of this team is in my previous post (Detroit Pistons Starters and Detroit Pistons Bench). DEEEE-TROIT BASKETBALL!!!

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Arduous Summer

I am expecting my summer to be hectic since I'm planning to work ahead on my thesis proposal but what I don't expect are the arduous school activities - almost a week of irritating street dancing practice for some event that will be held on May 8, the batch beach party that I'm not looking forward to, though I'm looking forward for it to be fun, I have a bad feeling about the said activity and when I have a bad feeling about something/someone; 75% of it comes true. I've run out of optimism considering there are lots of negative energy roaming not only in my customary feeling about school but also at home as well. The thing I now want most is a bigger space of freedom for myself which some people there would refuse giving me to because of the freakin' dangers outside this and that etc. etc. . I know they're being protective and all but I'm getting irritated about the ways they're doing to me. It's like living in a house arrest, I even got scolded one time for not asking permission to go to the city for spending some leisure time - WTF!

As I've been experiencing recently, it's been all fu**ed-up because I haven't seen these kinds of things coming around summer vacation. My plans are totally ruined and some free time are wasted because of these unexpected circumstances. Even some of my friends are snubbing me. Now, I really believe in the saying "Help yourself before helping others." - putting it into moral values, it's really on a sense of being selfish but what's the freakin' use of helping others when you yourself won't even benefit from it? nor will the people you've helped will help you in return? That's reality, and reality is a "give and take" system. You help me, I help you and vice versa. I'm still fuming mad on those people who I call "ingrates". Oh well, I really hope you'll have your days but I'm still glad to hear there are some people out there who would not hesitate to at least give some respect to me; without them, maybe I'll be battling those m***********s myself. Don't even think I have forgiven you. Making a ceasefire agreement is different from making a peace treaty.

Overall, my summer vacation so far is all but kaput.

Stairway to Hell

This post is a continuation to my previous post "Prediction Came Right".........

I was "partly" right about my predicition I can say. I came to school for some club meeting to be held to discuss the future activities within the group, and get my clearance signed. Well, they're late again as usual. I know it was coming because of the ever typical "filipino time" - the secondmost trait I hate about most filipinos, first would be the crab mentality.

I arrived in school with a gloomy mood because I had another argument with father almost every single morning (well, it's typical so I don't give it much of a big deal); seeing the sophomores playing basketball as usual and the rest of the campus being quiet and eerie at the same time. I was patiently waiting for them near at the Audio Visual Hall with a classmate helping me organize my Yu-Gi-Oh! deck of cards. I used to play this game alot, now I have no idea about the game. Maybe I need to refresh my mind about these matters, I 've been caught busy with video games recently. Back to the story, as I expected; we were again being ordered to do some school chores but I never got to do much so it saved me some time and energy for the activities I have to do later. Still, I was pretty much frustrated seeing the schedule of practices for the freakin' street dancing to be held in May 8. The batch beach party would also be held in May 5 and it's so damn freakin' compulsory. They're so dang presumptuous, one of the main reasons why I don't like most of the people there. What the hell would I do on those kinds of gatherings? Dammit. Even in our summer vacation, we'd still see much of school and it's seems like we'll never experience the whole 2 months of vacation basing on what's happening right now. I hate my high school life, hate it and enough said.

Frustrated by the schedule, I decided to get back home after all the things need to be done in school. The morning was disastrous but the rest of the day turned out fine.

And I'm going down...... all the way.

The Things Left Unsaid

I just want to clarify; before you leave me on commenting violent reactions, just know that I'm posting this just for the sake of "letting out the things left unsaid and those alike".

(I'd warn you that this post contains explicit language.)
Read at your own risk

I know that today's the right time of expressing this since now, I've nothing left much to lose.


Is it just me? or is the school fading in terms of quality education? because I can't seem to relate the experiences told by the previous batches about how memorable their life in the school is. Maybe we're not on it's "Golden Age" anymore. We're just like another great empire that is currently in decline, and hoping it won't be our downfall. Some of the good teachers have left and some slowly leaving the school although I can say there are still some few good teachers left.

Is it just me? or am I just that kind of person who can't seem to establish a connection with most of the people there? because despite of other people saying they're enjoying their life there. I don't. That's the truth and I haven't said this truth before because I know that they'll be huge risks that I've to suffer if I have to say this. Negative feedbacks, violent reactions, grudges are some examples of possibilities. Most people there are treating me shit (I don't want to censor these kinds of words anymore.). They gave me tonguelashing like I'm some perfect kind of person. I know that "diamond cannot be polished without friction"; but don't assume that all people can be disciplined through such insulting and hurtful words. I'm not from the army nor I'm from the Boy Scouts for crying out loud. I've also noticed that my friendships there are getting fake, freaking numbskulls. They're just after my guitar, they're just after my mp3 player, they're after my dvds, and I can even say that my "intermediate pad paper" has more friends than me you get what I mean? I've also done many things in order to find out such betrayal and I've felt the disgust in you and your fuckin' people alike because yeah, I know we couldn't even be friends anymore but at least you'll be gone by the next school year so I'll be glad not to hear anything from the freakin' people that I want to forget in my life, that includes you. Do you even think people are "godlike"? Hell no! That is why I don't trust people's facades anymore. They're just like wearing freakin' masks or doble kara or something like that. I'm not a saint, I commit mistakes sometimes, I have my downsides but the moment I've known and heard that you've been talking behind my back with some batchmate of mine some months, I've been pissed out to you ever since. What's hurful most is having the thought that I could trust you and you being "close to a saint". Turns out, you're just like any other people that I prefer to call "backstabbers". You, your and my so-called friends can just eat my dust. I know that someday karma's gonna get you all in some way. Fuckin' perfectionists, fuckin' backstabbers, fuckin' traitors.

And to the rest of those motherfuckers, do you even think I have no idea on what you're talking about me behind my back? I have my friends (and they've sweared it to God and their souls be damned forever if they're lying, so I can guarantee their honesty and besides that; they're moral abiding), who are telling me the sick and betraying things you've said to me; and now you're coming to me like we're some longtime friends? Fuck you! Just because you're some bigshot there doesn't mean you can bully and boast your "popularity" to me and my friends. You are just the same with the people I've been referring to in my previous paragraph. I know right now, you're not in the right terms of one of my classmates; and to think you're close friends before. Curse her too! You're all just the same but I'm glad my friends aren't like you people. If they are, then I wouldn't even think there's a significance in high school life and to the teachers who are doing their jobs well, then I appreciate and thank you for all the hardwork and for your understanding. I almost thought all the people there are different but I'm really really glad they're not like some motherfucking people I know since my first year there.


Just to quote a Greyhoundz song (Doble Kara), so any motherfucker who would read this would realize their own downsides instead of citing and criticizing mine. I hope you'll get hit "in your face" with this song because this is one of my favorite songs, this reminds me never to give my trust to anyone that anyone and to admit one of my biggest mistakes that is, by trusting you sick sons of bitches.

Doble Kara (by Greyhoundz)

Abot ng kamay sabay yakap
Bulungan "kamusta na kaibigan?
Ayos ba tayo jan?" tapik sa
Balikat sabay kindat" ingat
Nag-aalala lang" kala mo
Meron nga siyang pakialam pero
Pagkatalikod kanya-kanyang
Gawaan ng kwentong sino ang
Bida sino ang lamang kanya-
Kanyagn siraan 'alam mo ba yan
Si ganyan supot yan! mas astig
Ako jan!" at kung makatawa
Kala mo ang lupit lupit niya't
Magaling sa lahat kaso ikaw na
Nakangiting nakikinig huwag ka
Ng manghusga ano ba naman
Ang pinagkaiba natin sa kanila..

Nakakalimot nadudulas
Napupuno pero nagmamahal..
Nakakalungkot nakakatawa tao
Lang pero minsan.. daig mo pa
Ang ahas anong klaseng mukha
Kaya suot mo bukas daig mo pa
Ang ahas kaninong pwet kaya
Hahalikan mo bukas

Yan ka na naman kumakamada
Di ka na nahiya nagpupumilit
Makisiksik sa kahit di mo lungga
Di mo butas para maging pabigat
Manira managasa't magpahirap
Ng kapwa balimbing na
Kumakapit sa kung sino lang
Ang mainit ngunit maskadiri't
Masmabaho ka pa sa basura
Kapag naubusan pagkatapos
Mong mabusog ay tinatangay na
Ng hangin kung sa bagay.. para
Saan ba naman daw ang kaibigan
Kung hindi mo rin siya gagamitin

Nakakalimot nadudulas
Napupuno pero nagmamahal..
Nakakalungkot nakakatawa tao
Lang pero minsan.. daig mo pa
Ang ahas anong klaseng mukha
Kaya suot mo bukas daig mo pa
Ang ahas kaninong pwet kaya
Hahalikan mo bukas
Sinasayawan sinasabayan ang
Ihip at sipol ng hangin.

Nasilaw sa ilaw na dala ng
Panahon.. nakisawsaw sa balita
Para lang masabing andun siya
Nakiluksa sa drama ng iba
Kunwari naluha pa reklamo ng
Reklamo gagong di naman
Pumaparehas bidang bidang
Nakikisakay sa galing ng ibang
O-ats

Daig mo pa
Ang ahas anong klaseng mukha
Kaya suot mo bukas daig mo pa
Ang ahas kaninong pwet kaya
Hahalikan mo bukas
Sinasayawan sinasabayan ang
Ihip at sipol ng hangin.

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I love this song, the reality of the lyrics and powerful guitar play.

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ANO'ng mga klaseng mukha suot niyo bukas?
Kasi daig niyo pa ang ahas
Kaninong pwet kaya hahalikan mo bukas!!!!

Prediction Came Right

As I've said in my previous post, "it's gonna be a shitty day" and it did.

I went there to assess and rate the teachers. I wasn't even chosen to evaluate. Instead, I have to do some chores and some landscaping. Then came added insult to injury.... the month of April are planned with freakin' practices for our yet again another streetdance (let it all out: DAMMIT!), and the worse thing is; a research proposal for our thesis is an essential requirement for enrollment for the next school year, and not to mention another four hour school brigade to deal with.

I was unable to have my clearance completely signed so I guess I'll be back again tomorrow. Dang!

Prediction for tomorrow: Day will turn out initially great but shitty afterwards.

Let's see if I can do another accurate prediciton.

Update

Today's been dragging. I'm just downloading some mp3s from limewire, checking my friendster account, playing video games in my room, and updating this blog; but it's good news that mother's back from the trip. Now I can probably resume my research and ask for assistance.

I've grown addicted in eating the chocolates my father's brought from Manila. Butterfinger, Three Musketeers, and Milky Way to name a few. Better keep my sugar level balanced; don't want to experince Diabetes.

Finally, I've finished the game Bully, but technically it's not 100% completion; I still have many things to do before I could complete it fully. I only finished the entire storyline. I'm too lazy finishing the side missions. Well, I'm glad I've finished that game; next stop, Dawn of Mana.

Tomorrow's the assessment of teachers. I don't know what's gonna totally happen tomorrow, it'd only take some time and maybe finish off my clearance. It's the only nuisance I have to deal with as of late. I have a bad feeling about tomorrow, I think it's gonna turn shitty. No optimism for now, I've run out of it; maybe this June.

That's about it...... for now

Mundane

I was just browsing other people's blogs and found some blog accounts from the previous batch. Turns out, they all have the same topic; about Sir Jen's scolding (they're old blogposts). I didn't bother leaving a comment since the topics were outdated and I doubt if they still check their blogspot accounts.

I just had a very long conversation with a friend recently. We've talked about certain matters; it lasted for about 3 hours (conversation in ym, not on the phone). It's been nice to have someone who's trusted, most people I've met are just some sickos who just approach me when they're in trouble, fair weathered friends in short. We have certain things in common. We're both fans of the Detroit Pistons, we're both freaks in the field of History, and we're both underdogs in terms of competitions. You know what I mean?

I'm just plain glad today because I still have communication from the "outside world", and mother's coming back home tomorrow from Marawi. I haven't seen her in a week or so, and it's time to seek help from what my possible study's gonna be. I'm all f***ed up on that matter. I know it's too early to worry about that but I think it's better to plan be prepared earlier. I don't want to experience the things the previous batch had experienced. Last minute actions, 11th hour burning the midnight oil or something like that.

Looking Back

Introduction:

Well, it's the moment I've been waiting for; the official end of the school year.

Though it's not been a dominating happiness; there's still a lot of s*** to deal with. I haven't been cleared completely yet and there's still a lot of cleaning to be done in order for us to get enrolled in our school (and yes, we're a public school if you're wondering).

Now, I'm all but worried about what's my study's gonna be to the next school year. I thought I have found one, now I'm starting from scratch. Dang!


III-Nobel - TCSHS's new breed

III-Nobel "Buwan ng Wika" Mariachis... God that was embarrassing but I think it's worth it

A New Breed Arises; Nobelians rise!

Anyways, it's been a long and fun run this school year. We had our laughs and fades but s*** happens. It really does I tell you. We've been under alot of pressure (and by that, I meant our section alone). Proud to be one of the first batch of TCSHS's new section (Nobel); and not to mention we're the most abused of them all (we've been bossed around almost every single day, and I'm trying my best to evade it). We're also an underrated section (take a look at Prinz Buyo and Teepu Camba's robotic awards, King Seroje's STEP award, Giomen Alayon's superb Theology and General Knowledge, and Darrell Malto's honors and the master of art mad skills), we haven't got that much credit because we suck at academics (Darrell's our class valedictorian, he's eleventh overall). Good feeling to be underrated, it's something that I'm really proud of. Forget the awards, forget the recognition, all that matters are the things that we are capable of.

Lunch with some friends (I'm at the center, not aware the cam was there)

JS PROM (me and some caporegimes, mwaha)

The Peak Years of High School Life
This June, we're about to reach the peak of our high school life (and be the big boss men of the campus; IF!, we'll gonna make it). Batch 10's graduated and we'll be the ones who would be taking over. I'm gonna miss them though.

June 2008, a freaking date that "I'm not looking forward to". We're going to be Sir L's punching bags. (oh, wait a minute we already are....). His so-called "polo y servicio" will be held this May, another freakin' school brigade. I hate cleaning you know? It's not really a fun break this summer; but at least I'm far away from school. My mother wants me to study calculus now that I'm nearing my high school life's end. Next school year's going to be a bumpy ride!

Speaking of next school year, Oh s***! I haven't find a single possible study for my thesis. Dang!


As of now, I've been playing and trying to finish the game "Bully" (I'm on the last chapter now). Besides that, I'm here writing blog entries just for the sake of having something to do (and at the same time, listening to music). Nobody's online besides my brother and some forum mates in friendster. Where could they all have gone? Or did they all set their accounts invisible just to avoid my presence? Hope not.

Spontaneous Writing

Dear reader,

Currently listening: "Bohemian Rhapsody"

I always hang out in our own house, sometimes playing games on my PS2 console which I suddenly remember Urbandub's song "Fallen on Deaf Ears", "waste time with violence....", reading books like comedic book Ang Paboritong Libro ni Hudas, Archie comics, Pugad Baboy, and The Art of War or I just stay idle almost thinking of nothing. I rarely go out of our house only except for appointments and meetings because I easily get tired going out of the house. I haven't got that many friends like the friends I know, and associating with strangers are just too hard maybe because I don't easily trust them. I'm too cautious but less aggressive you know what I mean? I don't even have the high spirits in parties but I'm not a "kill joy" if you're wondering.

I enjoy blogging (which, I am doing right now) and I find it enjoyable (most people I know really find blogging boring and tedious. Well, I'm looking the other way around.).

Don't get me wrong, I still communicate with others........... in ym (haha, I'm not comfortable in direct conversations). I chat with my friends there about almost any issue we could think about; politics, history, math, life, death, interests, music... you name it).

Call me nerd if you wish but if the things that I enjoy doing makes me a nerd then I'm freakin' proud to be called one. Not an emo, not an addict, not a goth; but a NERD. Being called one makes me feel like "having a secured and established personality" know what I mean?

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Well, that's about it. My brain's worn out of thinking straight and spontaneously.

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I'm trying this practice in which if you think and write spontaneously and simultaneously, you'll sharpen and strengthen your vocabulary and literacy.

You better try it out.

"well, as of now; my spontaneous writing is a bit rusty. needs more practice don't you think?"

RAT Controversy

I'm really pissed off when I took the RAT test. Those proctors are damn so annoying! She ignored me when I said to turn her ipod's sound down; and some of these classmates of fine dominantly replied: "it's ok maam, it's not bothering us"... oh really? well, it's so bothering me?

And they're so impatient about the test. You kidding me? 2 pm, the test is over? it's like 3 hours earlier.

We've checked the testpapers and later found out that the answers in the answer key were wrong.

examples:

-a beaver belongs to the family of (obviously it's rodent)... the answer in the answer key is dog!]
-covalent bond; a bond between nonmetals (obviously it's SO2), the answer in the answer key is PbO? Lead oxide? you gotta be kidding me... lead's a transition metal.... Sulfur dioxides the very obvious answer.
-what is mass over volume? the answer was not DENSITY!!!!

This is outrageous and very insulting to me and to the entire school.
I really hope you'll have your days.
I really hope you're time will come.
Instant karma's gonna get you.
If we don't get you first.

Are you planning to sabotage the school? (and I mean the proctors from a school called DR. CECILIO PUTONG NATIONAL HIGH SCHOOL).

We've send a letter of complaint to the principal which I hope would be received and be heard from whoever he sends it from.


GET UP STAND UP! Stand up for your right.
GET UP STAND UP! Don't give up the fight.
-Bob Marley

Discontentment

Finally, the school year is nearing it's end. I feel both the excitedness and the sorrow (but it's mostly the excitedness).

Though I still have to deal with finishing all the things I need to finish to pass all my requirements; and there's still R.A.T (Regional Achievement Test) to deal with. It can either be a grace from God or a pain in the ass. Either way, it's going to be a bumpy ride.

I've already found a feasible study that I'll definitely need for my thesis next school year (IF!! I can make it out alive). Though I'm not telling you because someone might steal the idea, leaving me empty handed.

Still needs to finish my notes, find all the testpapers, and save some money for the incoming summer. I might get penniless so it's worth saving.

You may wonder why I've entitled this post "discontentment". It's because that's what I'm currently feeling right now. We're tasked to dance the "La Cucaracha", in front of thousands of people in the incoming CVIRAA event. We're going to be put "out of countenance" with the crappy steppings and costumes. My spirit and morale are both low; and I'm in no mood dancing in front of spectators from the whole region 7, and not to mention me covering the event (because I'm the schoolpaper's sports editor, dang)

TCSHS Guillotine

After the Prom (if you haven't read about the Prom, you can read it just below this post), I'm thinking about things and I've thought about my own dang freaking grades.

If the 85 grade mark really is the basis on Math, then I'm on the verge of saying goodbye to my new alma mater.

The TCSHS Guillotine as what I've called it (and it sounds cool so I decided to keep it that way), is one of the things that bothers me most. Everytime I think of school; it only reminds me of it.

But as Churchill once said: "A pessimist sees difficulty in every opportunity. An optimist sees opportunity in every difficulty." ; and I really hope I'm that optimist. If truly this is only a test or obstacle that I must face then come what may.

(The word guillotine also reminds me of that Urbandub song... "the song keeps playing on my head").

I'm looking at the glass half full... are you?

TCSHS Junior Senior Promenade

I've just experienced my first and unlike any other firsts. I actually liked it.

Because we are tasked to be "gentlemen" in this event (you know, those "offering the seats" to the ladies, help her go upstairs.... things like that), it's helluva hard task. I've never been of a "gentleman" before. It's tiring, but I guess it pays off the experience. Every person experiences all his firsts right?

Despite it being "scripted" and all, they were surprises (I hate surprises). We (the juniors) were told to dance the "La Cucaracha", a dance presentation in our MAPEH class that I've told to forget.

Even in dinnertime, Sir still bosses us around with doing this and doing that. I was told to pick up the freakin' feathers the "dove" have left. I haven't thrown it away though, I'll paste it in my journal; maybe for sentimental value and evidence perhaps?

A friend of mine brought with him a camera, unfortunately for us; he forgot to charge it's batteries so we were unable to take that "many pictures" in the event but according to him, his camera just turned on and said it was a "miracle" from the Almighty. Well, talk about "strange things" so we didn't hesitate and took pictures with me and some friends. It was helluva experience actually, forget the introversion for awhile.

With the last will and testament part, I laughed when a friend of mine was declared a sleepyhead. He was frustrated not because he was declared as one but because he wasn't the only sleephead alone. Could've been nice if he's the only one. Unique in a way of course. Most things ain't bad as I usually "witness" in my own opinion.

My prom partner ain't bad either. She's a nice person, understanding really. I bought her roses (because she told me so, and didn't expect I'd really do it) It's really hard to be a gentleman. My first time actually. It all better be worth it; because I'm not the usually gentleman type just as I've said at the top of this post.

There was the pinning of corsage, and the singing tribute of the juniors entitled "Next in Line" which I by the way don't like listening.

(Note by the way: This event is only through my perspective and only based on all the memory I could remember so I apologize if there were some events here I haven't mentioned and recognized)

"moving on"

Ah, the socials... maybe the "best part" of any activity. Dancing and socializing here, dancing and socializing that.... I have danced about 7 girls as far as I've remember (even if it's only a few days ago, I'm sometimes forgetful about things). My last dance was with "her" (to all the freakin' chismosos and chismosas there I'm sure you know her, so it was all worthwhile. Then me and my friends took pictures courtesies of my "religious friend" and of course don't forget the photographer (and teacher) Mr. Daniel Jr.

The socials are still going on but I decided not to dance after that (my stomach was already aching so I just decided to sit, rest, and "socialize"). It's a bit weird about the fact that I'm socializing, which I'm not really grown accustomed to. Strange days indeed. Yes indeed.

Well, I guess that wraps it up. I really hope you didn't regret reading this one and I appreciate everyone who've read this.

Three Exhausting Days

It's been weeks since I have checked this account. My damn internet connection cannot enter this site (the bandwidth's too slow I assume) so I was forced to use landline connection (30 pesos per hour) but I sure hope the family won't find out (I'll be deadmeat).

Anyways, it's all mixed up as usual. I got my certificate that I have won in the NSO essay writing contest finally signed by Mr. Jala himself (it wasn't signed, making it invalid), I was caught off guard in the periodical exams, so many damn memorizations to be..... well, memorized. Why would I memorize a group of Malaysian or Indonesian instruments in a test then forget all about it anyway? Short term memorizations are useless (or should I say TWOT, total waste of time).

On the other hand, history's got to be one of my strengths when it comes to periodical tests. Sure it's helluva memorizin' to be done but I'm interested in the subject (if only it was officially in english, then I'd sure be reading the book!). Besides, I didn't learn history through textbooks alone, but rather in video games (believe it!). Age of Empires, Total War, Empire Earth, Medal of Honor, Call of Duty, Civilization, Caesar... you name it. With those strategy games, I can learn history easily (well, maybe except those pleistocene eras... I find it complicated).

Back to the "useless kind of memorzing"......... as I've said... WHAT's THE POINT IN Short term memorizations?

I'm all f***** up in memorizations, I'm also f-up in math. I forgot the formulas I've studied all week long (twot), and I'm not physically, and psychologically prepared. Dammit!

I'll rest after writing this (rather than getting back to memorizing my notes again). It's going to be useless anyway (even if I have to study my notes 3 weeks earlier). I'm hopeless when it comes to these kind of situations.

Recently, I've been finding ways on how to "memorize" things easily.... any suggestions?

Que Sera Sera!!!